Shopping!!

went shopping with dad today. Awkward! hehe. got most necessities which was not much. then i bought bras and it turns out im not a size B75 anymore. Im now size D70!!! that was super weird. i got a few sexy lacy ones..oo0o.. and mathching panties:) hehehe. but the sad thing was that i couldn't get the sports bra from lasenza that i wanted because they sent the stock back to the warehouse. damn it!! should have bought it the last time i saw it. @$!&%!!!!!

i got myself a new camera!! panasonic lumix. wanted to get the latest sony cybershot but then got one that was much better for the same price. rm1440.

two weeks later.....

i find out that by bra size is still b. its just that one type of bra brand-xixili which has doubled the size...but still the same. oh and the camera is not that great. regret canging my mind should have just goten cybershot one. but what to do now. cannot exchange.

SK Concert/ Outing.

11/4/o8. Sean kingston concert. we buggers went late and so missed the whole thing except for the last two songs. after zouk we landed the great volvo 240GL at Heritage. After that everything was just screwed up. ed's fren joel started talking nonsense about this and that.

Begining to See

You can make me whole again..

I'm actually quite glad its over.

I just couldn't take it anymore.

..the wrappers on my study table, the used plates on the counter, the dirty footprints on the mattress, the open shower foam bottle, the bucket left in the tub, the towel not spread out when its wet, my cup on the coffee table, the dining table chairs not in place, the smashed cigarette sticks on the floor.. need i go on?

i know I'm not perfect. i know I'm messy sometimes. But this is just too much.

there are idiots out there probably thinking that I'm just fussy but i don't give a shit about what you think.

if you think like that you obviously don't know me and don't care about me.

i desperately need to talk to someone:(

Finally Got It Through

i agree with you. the way you handled it was kinda cool. wasn't really what i was expecting..as you can see. but its good. and we're still close. too close in fact but who gives a damn. not like anyone of us gonna be hookin up soon.. right? hehe*

Touching*

damn if only i had kept those msges for abit longer. aite heres how it goes..sorta

chatting online-

r: so when u gonna kiss me?
hidden: y?
r: no reason. just asking.
hidden: after you push me.. malu
r: what? i never pushed you!!
hidden: why do u want me to?
r: no no come to think of it i dont want you to.
hidden: haha. why?
r: err..cuz you dont want to.
hidden: haha. i want to.
r: what! i mean yeah ofcourse u want to i knew that. jeez
hidden: what do u want me to say. would u allow me?
r: allow u to? kiss me?
hidden: brb
r: i gtg anyways.
r: yeah and i guess i would allow you to.

after going offline..r got an sms..

hidden: you would allow me?? lol
r: err..yea i would. but i dont even know if you're interested.
hidden: are you?
r: yes i am.
hidden: why? just asking.
r: i dunno. its just the first time we went out i've been interested but you weren't so i just kept to myself.
hidden: i was interested. you wanna find out how remember i told u i wanna lose my virginity to you.
r: oh w0w! really. actually i felt the same way.
hidden: yea and all u said was im honored.
r: aite well thats in the past. i tot u were playing. anyways ..

yes thats the story. you could think of it as something i just made up for fun or something that is real and going on as we speak... either way..its nothing. so somebody better not get mad.

Confusion gets to all of us.

I’ve been thinking. Yeah I do that a lot. Surprising huh? I know we’ve been apart for a couple of days. I’ve finally gotten to clear my mind without your voice breathing down my neck every few hours. And fine I may have went to seek advice from a friend. And what I’ve come to is this- it’s so much better if we just remain friends and I really want to be close to you. I’ve just been so down these couple of months I can’t take another fight or argument. I know we’re very much in love but I feel that I’m beginning to hate you more than love you. Does that make any sense? Though sometimes you very well know how to pull me back and make it seem all right but its not. You just can’t erase what has happened. We’ve gone through too much shit to make it disappear. Sure we’ve had good times but that’s not enough to make the bad times subside. Not with me I just don’t forget. I know its harsh but I’m the type of person who doesn’t forget when a person acts so mean and rude to me I keep it inside. I try to do my best to act like im fine with it. Normally I am but not in this case. I’m so sorry but too much has been going on. You’ve been away for a few days and I actually feel... Relieved. I feel good to know that we’re friends. I’m just scared cuz….i haven’t broken the news to you yet. I hope u can take it. But you’ve been expecting it anyway right? Im sorry.
You know what I think this is good. Im sure you wont cry like you did when you and your ex broke up. I mean that was a real damn nice heck of a relationship wasn’t it. Well that’s what you keep telling me abt her and so I just put together that it is..i mean was. ®
but then again.. i take it all back??

Torch Lights

how do i make this sound less obvious..hmm
there are two torch lights..one is dimming and the other one is getting brighter little by little.
the one that is dimming still has a chance. its batteries can be change. but what if the batteries are not the problem. maybe it's got a loose connection. or the wiring is not set right. it doesn't get any brighter but continues to dim. does the user chuck it away and get another one or does he fix it over and over again?
and how about the light that is bright. its not that far ahead and it doesn't look too great either. it could be what the user wants it to be. even more brighter with full charged batteries. though it gets brighter little by little its not jumping to the extent that it could be. is it playing around with the user's mind? now put this in reality..basing this on something much more then it seems.
get the picture?

Flo Rida ft. T-Pain - Low [currnt addiction]

hmm..
i seem to be repeating posts.
i guess im starting to get boring.
im not entertaining no more!!! (sobs*)
oh i had a dream this morning after coming back from school.
its was about this guy who kept changing his picture back to his ex.
and he has a current gf where their very obssesed about each other.
why the hell am i dreaming abt this when i've got nothing to do with it??
anyways yeah thats about it.
day by day im running out of things to write.
hopefully next month will be better.

ps denise i can make it to your blog but i forgot the password:D
hehe. give it to me baby!!!

A very Naughty Dream

i know him..
he knows me..
has feelings?
i don't know
maybe he does
but chooses to ignore it..
whyy?!?!

was counting the days until my mom would leave to america. but it turns out she might not even go. @#$%!!! owh well..

i had a dream. It was kinda naughty..and maybe i liked it. I won't tell you what happened..and with who it happened with. If you really wanna know.... dum dum dum..
just come ask me la. hahah

-The Daily Rhea-

Why do people feel like if they don't see each other for a long time in a relationship..their doomed!!? i think its totally fine. infact its even good to have long breaks in between. just to test how strong it is. but'll it'll definitely fail if all one party wants to do is bang bang all the way. hahaha. In that case i always just let em' go. Fly!!!

p.s- To den and serra. thanks for commenting on my post. i know you guys are always there. I am always here too:) Missing ya'll like hell!! Love you to bits!!!

p.s.s- Serra!!! you wrote about discrimination just like i did!! you copy cat!! hahaha. just kidding. we can share. thats what its all about isn't it. we all need a topic to write about anyways. and stop trying to beat me you're already ahead by more than a hundred. hahaha. denise!!! i still can't read your blog!! sheesh!!!!