happy 11th month

old scars, open wounds, go deeper, the pain and torture..continues. there is no end to this. there wasn't a begining. he laid with another. and with her and the same time. the one in pain had no clue. and he just kept on laying with others.. and he continued to pretend that she was the only one he laid with. to her anyway.. she believed it. months passed. he may have stopped for awhile. but it was never truly over and done with with the others. she knew about the others though.. found one.. then another. couldn't really prove it. until it hit him in the face. he knew that if she found out nothing would be the same. it may seem that this man may not have told her all this because he was afraid to lose her. but no! he didn't tell her because he still wanted to see those women. he continued his relations with those other women. 'keep us a secret' he'd tell em. for one night they'd meet again when his supposed girlfriend is out of town. she continues to see him. people tell her. you're stupid he will never change. but she had no one. she's in a pickle you could say. he told her things would change when she found a note of him and one of his lovers exchanging sexual emotions. that he didn't mean a word he said. but the thing was.. it was the truth. he did lay with her.. so what didn't he mean? he promised her things then for he had said he didn't want to lose her. it seemed believable. however all broken promises. one after another.. it just kept coming. she knew he didn't mean a word and just wanted to hurt him so bad. but how could she? she would go mad after that. she loved him. she ached inside on finding the news. she really believed she was the only one. trusted him. believed his proken promises. was always let down but still believed in him. what was she to do. she had no one to turn to. and this time she really didn't.

-someone close to me inspired me to write this. thank u.