Decision made.

I've made up my mind. im not going to waste three years of my life doing something i dont wanna do. so im going to study a'levels in this horrid school where they accept students who have been expelled from other schools. i just hope that it is recognised by other universities abroad. so after one year is complete i can study anywhere i want. now the only thing standing in my way is dad. mom says he's never going to let me study overseas. all i gotta do is just worm up to him. that won't be hard kissing up to an old man's ass. hehe

Life's Wasted

I wanna Learn Spanish

I wanna play basketball

I wanna Run till my legs bleed

I wanna run Away and never return

I wanna Travel and taste the Good in Life

I wanna change college just cuz there's no curricular activities

I wanna be the one where people say "hey i know that girl she's gonna be well known one day"

I wanna be a part of a team. what ever it may be- dance, singing, sports? which i miss like hell by the way!!

I wanna go back to high school and give everyone a proper goodbye which i didn't. I miss them all and thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

All i wanted was a few days to think things through. But i was rushed into it. By my mom and god knows who else. I regret the decisions i've made and wish i was given a second chance to redo. But there's no time left and i dont wanna waste another few months of my life.

I've got to figure out what i wanna within the next one month or i'm doomed.

Last chance i better make a move. right or left. how do i know if its right or not. what if i take the wrong turn again?...left to be seen

*To Edwin with Love*

This is to you my Love.

Happy Birthday!!

I don't know when you're gonna read this but when you do i hope it puts a smile on your face.

Dear i love you so much and though i don't show it much hopefully you can sense it.

I've been so tremendously happy these few months with you and i know you feel the same way right?

Anyways have a wonderful 22nd year ahead of you.. with me =]

Lost on the subway~

All right then i was going somewhere or so it seemed. i was using some kinda train. it was underground more like a subway train. i could see like all my highschool frens with me. i especially remember seeing benny. haha. anywyas over and over again i kept on getting off at the wrong station and was always late for the next one. this was so weird. when i finally got to the right station i bumped into g and it was so weird bacause she looked so hot and i actually liked her. eventhough i didn;t know her. we then started talking when we were on our way to the bathroom. when i was about to go into the bathroom i felt like i didn't want to stop our conversation. so i just went to the room next to hers. of course she saw me. i started to bathe god knows why and so did she. so over the toilet we were still talking.
G: hey you wanna hang out?
me: yeah sure what you wanna do?
G: why don't you join me with my frens we're going clubbing today.
me: oh sure i'd love to..
suddenly i felt something being thrown over the bathroom door straight at me. It was her frens and i guess they didn't want me to come along with them. but i so wanted to go out with g that i just kept close to her after i came out. but then they started to hit me and push me away. so yeah this is one of the craziest dreams i've had so far. it was like i was obsessed with her. So to break it down im not obsessed with her. i just think she's hot. hehe.

Grand Mansion

This may have been long overdue. i've always wanted to write it out when it was fresh in my mind but never got the time. ok its about a dream i had so long ago. its not quite interesting but the foundation was grand.

I was invited to stay at this man's mansion supposedly an uncle of mine together with my family of course. But i dont remember seeing any of their faces. anyways the place was huge. the whole building was in the shape of a circle. and this is shocking. there was a metro train on every floor. and thrust me there were alot of floors. i looked up and it was like never ending. it sorta seemed like a shopping mall. but instead of shop lots all over the place there were bedrooms. everything was computerized. the doors were glass and see through. when you came close it would automatically open. there weren't even maids to do the cleaning in the rooms. there were machines that would all of a sudden come out of the walls and tidy up the place. anyways i'll just skip to the end. i was like sneaking around looking at the place. then suddenly i felt something following me. started walking faster i saw this huge shadow against the wall. it was my uncles very own babysitting machine. i ran to the room where my sister was in and threw myself on the bed next to her. the machine like baby sitter came closer.. sniffing up every area until it came to the bad. she then stopped as though she had found what she was looking for. i looked down hoping i didn't leave anything that could leave my trace and there i saw something glowing...

Didn't really know much of anything after that cuz thats when i got up. yesterday i had another weird dream. but i'll talk about in the next post. enjoy!!

Worked Up^

So Many things im filled with. Now that we dont have a maid i gotta do more than HALF the work. And believe me it's Alot.

Some day i just feel Blue.
other days i feel kinda Mellow.

Then when my baby comes over i feel lovely..
Aww and im missing you dear. OK nowadays i guess im grateful for this wonderful guy i have. almost gonna be FOUR months. and his birthday's coming up. can't wait!

i hope he likes it. kinda screwed it up. me and my itchy fingers. =] hehe.
oo0o..and i got this black top.
its hot but not so much on me. gotta lose abit you know what im saying. hehe
THANKS for the top BABY.

I LOVE IT.

I LoVe YoU!

boredom strikes again..

im so freaking bored..waiting for my boy to msg me back. i wanna go out but not really cuz i wanna write this blog. plus im so lazy these days. hehe. i've just finished my exams this week. yippy!! now i wanna go clubbing. haizz...well i've been real bored so i took these pics which is actually kinda funy but dont laugh. =] its kind of a mixture of old and new. so please forgive me.

it goes from recent to ..umm...not so recent...enjoy!!

taking photos just after the casting.

No Entry!

=P

isn't he adorable..i know what you're thinking..yeah deff(cough*bullshot*cough) hehe. just kidding dearie.

i think i look cute here don't you? hehe

mirror-ry

yeah i was feeling kinda kookoo

HOTT!! hehe more like PHAT!

yeah this almost freaked me out.

Dont look at me! I'm shy..

I Love Ferrero Rocher more than anything!!

*Making New Friends*

I've just joined Taylors college abt 3 months ago- 6th July. but unfortunately missed the first day and lost the chance to bond with my group. but after awhile i managed to make friends. mostly guys..hehe.. but ofcourse girls too. its been a lot of fun. i've got a new gang to go clubbing with. and ofcourse my darlin as well. but just lately i heard this fat ass likes me..its that fat indian guy you can see in this photo. yikes! i think i was just too nice to him in the beginning. but now im trying to ignore him. the other day he grabbed my phone and tried to hide it but i was like f*ck you give it bak. hehe. yea i was mean but when guys like these start to like you you'll understand how disgusting it feels. damn he could take up the whole photograph. ergh! seeing him glance over at me is so..yuck. probably i would say he's the most ugliest person i've ever seen. and his behavior is another one. ok enough abt him i dont wanna obsess on something that is soo low. anyways the other friends i've made are pretty nice. but there's this one girl who is like just too open like she's kinda weird but over exaggerates but sometimes nice. and then there is this one guy who's nice but only hang around with me cause i think he just wants someone to talk to so i feel nice abt that atleast one guy who doesn't hang around me cause he thinks i look nice. its so much harder making friends in college. at times i picture myself in high school with my old friends running havock though we're quite grown. we just did things not caring what other ppl think. but mainly i hate mass com to yeah i guess this is all because of my feelings for that. for me it normally comes easy but not this time. ppl are prolly just jealous. hehe. kidding!!=p

Is it too good to be true?

Lots have been happening since the last time i wrote a blog. hmm..lets see...first was the sunway lagoon wet&wild party-21st july 07. on that very day was also the birth of a beautiful relationship..or so i hoped..and still do. hehhe. edwin and i are still going strong...i think.. with a few bumps here and there. but then a again what is a relationship without some fire? =PPP..though we've only been together for 2 months already. can't say much cause i don't really know him that well. now i sorta feel like we rushed into the relationship..or should i say i rushed?? since i made the 1st move?? hehe. i first met him through his cousin at heritage row and was invited to a hotel for some girls birthday party. thats where when i really looked at edwin i thought damn this guy's HOT! but then later on he seemed really sweet. but i still think he made the first move cuz i don't remember!!! heheh ok moving on bak to the story. lately there's been more arguments going on than i expected. getting alil bit too emo infront of him. shedding tears and all. which is really stupid cuz i have never cried infront of a guy before. and i would say that this is the only relationship where there's so many arguments and hurt involved. im so hating that part but what can i do? its not like i start it. hold other guys hand and he goes bezerk. but he can do dirty dancing between two girls all. well i guess he means well. taking care of me and all. but sometimes its just too much. i've already made it clear that i don't want it to be so serious and he's still finding fault with me. but what ever it is i still love him. whether it will last or not time will tell.

Denise's Birthday Bash!!

A great party. One to remember. The best ever. And we didn't even have to drink to enjoy. haha(you know what i mean). Lots a catching up. Almost everyone was there. the good guys, the not so good ones. i lost my fairview book!! hahah. but no matter hopefully i'll get it back. anyways back to the party. it was just great. happy belated birthday hunny. sorry about your present. i left it the damn cab. nvm the next time we meet i'll give you something. babe i love you so much. i will always be here whether you need me or not. whatever it is. you know you can count on me. and ofcourse ser as well. i love you to bits. i love you 100x100 times greater. hehe.

k these are just pictures of that night.