Happy Easter?

happy but broken. i want someone but 'he' doesn't want me. well thats what i think. someone tells me he cares. but he says im too innocent...right. and he's just scared that something bad will happen. what could be worse then the hardache of love not formed? its not like he wants someone serious right? fine he thinks im such a goodie. so what? i dun care... i think. the more the days pass the more i feel like i should let it go. but i can't. he's always in touch. its not like i can erase him from my life like how i did to the others. maybe we shouldn't have gone out in the first place. this wouldn't have happened if not for that day. that wonderful day. 23rd march 07. a day i shall not forget. argh!!! if only....if only i could go back in time. can someone please create this time machine so no one can keep dreaming of the 'if only's'?? i know it doesn't make sense. ppl come up to me and say owh rhea your so preety, i like your hair, i like your face. ahh!! sometimes i just get so frustrated knowing that they hate me deep down inside. why couldn't god just create us equally preety or equally ugly. which ever it is im fine with it. maybe in my next life i'll be ugly...who knows..but i dont believe in that. owh well...its 2.20am early on sunday morning. its EASTER!! the LORD IS RISEN!!! ALLELULLIA!!!

Happy Easter mY dear Lovely's

Sports Day! (supposedly).

Sports day was weeks ago but forgot to write in so here goes. won two medals- gold for 100m and silver for 200m. would have gotten silver for relay but got freakkin disqualified cuz of some asshole who claims that i pass the line but i dun think so cuz i was well away from it eventhough i ran back.

Though my house(VENUS) won i feel depressed.

ARGHH!!

When do i get to get the trophy? i know im never gonna get it now. ppl have pictures of the sports day thing but im not even freaking getting it....ahhh so irritating...always gotta keep asking for it.

Fcuk him i want my phone back. that bastard can go rot in hell for all i care. thinks mom is keeping us away from him.. hahah its we who are not wanting to go to him when he comes home!!!

I am all alone....

Tommorow.

Tommorow. Sports Day. Just can't wait to run.
>All my anger. Everything i carry. revenge, pity, sorrow.
>Lay it out all on the track.
>Between me and them.
>If you can't beat them, join em'.

Another damn dream..

Camping. Went with my friends to some kinda jungle. It was just a small group of us. no teachers or adult supervision. all i could remember was that there was a medical room. in the jungle! weird but yea. n i was helping out init. remember one person got hurt. couldn't se the face. n i was dapping the wound. telling the patient to be careful and yada yada yada...
saw my bestie(denise) sitting on a rock. i went and sat next to her and we started talking..dunno abt wat la but having fun and yapping away. Then for awhile i went away. dun even know where. maybe to the toilet. if there was one in the jungle. came back and joined den. nicely held hands with her(ey just as the friend way ok not like...u know wat i mean). Anyways i asked her something and after she replied i was thinking to myself that does not sound like her.
I turned around to look and it was PR!! with the long hair and everything!! i was so shocked, screamed, got off the rock and tried to run off not knowing that my hand was in his. got pulled back and fell. Pulling my hand away but he wouldn't let go. Suddenly my herd of so-called-friends came and started laughing. not stoping to help. they just walked off and one even was doing some kinda motion as if he was gonna kick me. I was so confused.
One end my friends are acting like such assholes and the other...still gripping onto my hand. I stared at him. and he did the same. suddenly the environment changed. we were in my house but same position. this time he was sitting on a chair and me on my marble floor. he got up and pulled me up as well. giving indication that he wanted to be alone with me. yet again.
he walked towards my room and me being an idiot followed after him. woke up after that. i guess i still do have feelings for him but dun want to do anything cuz he's give up on love and still LOVES his ex. plus its no tlike he has feelings for me. Dun even know why im saying this. not even part of the dream. but yea its sad.
told him abt the dream but not exactly everything. and now he wants me to email him the story..yea right like hell im gonna do that. ok well mayb. but wateva. just a dream right. though most of mine come true. but in diff ways ofcourse. blah. know this is boring but just felt like writing it out. who knows maybe i liked it.

Wise Words

>> Work like you don't need the money.
>> Love like you've never been hurt.
>> Dance like nobody's watching.
>> Sing like nobody's listening.
>> Live like it's Heaven on Earth.


May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

Grad Photoshoot Day!! 28/2/07

The Besties..nilu's missing =[



Minhtut!!!!!

Mon!!!





Close-up





Denise, Nerissa n me.





Jonathan!!!!





Minh Nhat and Mahfuz

Me~






Hye Jeong!!!

Musharrat, Wyn, Ji Eun n me

With Shreosi!!!

me, Wyn, Shreo, Suzy and Nerissa

Group Photo 1

Group Photo 2

I love this picture

wth?...Hogwarts Students!!

With Min n Jon...hottest guys in school (cough*bullshit*cough)

Suyin!! she's so preety here.

CNY/ Suyin's Birthday Party.

yup yup. it was a blast. there was steam boat and that yummy chocolatie cake but by yin yin herself. and had a great time with friends whom i can hardly keep in touch with cause of our damn studies. well im too lazy to write every detail of how it went so just look at the pictures.

Ji&I. Forced to slavery! haha...nah

I love this photo. Jon was scared i was gonna pop the cork at him.

Clearing the table.

Blowing out her candles. make a wish su! make a wish!!

Nicely chattin.

Fairview's Angels?....yea right.

damn minhtut closed his eyes...lets take again...

wyn chi stop it or i'll pounce on you!!

weeeeeeee...

us. cards. pillows. drinks....we weren't drinking the beer by the way.

now with shireen!



yeah he finally showed up at like after 10 and was like show me the money!!

suyin's the only normal lookin one over here.

Happy Valentines!

It's exactly one day passed so here goes..

Happy (belated) Valentines Day.

If it can be said then so be it. Spent Valentines mostly sleeping. Didn't bother. Just happily single. hehe. I know i might not sound like it but i am. Not lookin for love anymore. I know i had true love but i lost it to my stupidity. Now i have to suffer the rest of my days being single. Or mayb with someone i don't really care for so deeply as I once used to. Thats the way it goes nowadays. Is there even such a thing as a your perfect match, soul mate, true love? Can what was lost be once again found in another? Thats what i yearn to know. But i doubt you can find the exact same replicate your looking for. It will always be different. You may think that you have found THE ONE! But things change. After some time seeing that one person everyday can get annoying. You start to wonder " Why was i ever with that fellow?". " What the heck did i see in him/her?". Get what im trying to say? There is always that point in time where you won't feel the same way you once did. That is only natural. Don't put yourself down because you feel you made the wrong decision. If it is to end just end it. It is bound to happen sooner or later.

Thanks Ya'll

Two days back. Friday. 9/2/07. Was supposedly my day. My birthday infact. thought it would be like any other boring day. In the morning my close buddies banged into me, giving me a big hug along with my presents. I was glad. But during maths i had this strange feeling. and i wanted to keep it that way. didn't want it to go away. it was sad but some sort of a calm one. But anyways wat im tryin to get through is that the day turned out to be better than i had expected. Thank you so much to those who wished me and to those who gave me the pressies...lots of hugs and kisses. I absolutely love em'.

He's Goin Down Alright.

Bring him down. Bring him all the way down. Show sympathy-no he doesn't deserve any. For what he made us go through...he should suffer and be tortured on earth as well as in hell. Saying that it doesn't matter if we date our best friends ex. Well i thought it wouldn't matter as well seeing that he really liked me. But it was all a bloody lie. I put my friendship at stake. Without even knowing. I had a feeling that she will get hurt. That she still had feelings for him. But i guess i wanted him. To feel the same way she did. Cause i haven't felt that way in a long time. And i still haven't. But i tried to control myself. Was scared for my best friend so just thought that i could lay low for awhile.

But then mr.p had a talk with me one day. Which really changed my mind. Thought that the guy had a soft spot. For all the things mr.p said i actually felt wanted. But while it was going on..which i dont even know wat its called...i didn't even feel like he cared. I felt used. All the shit he told me was just to keep me in his fuckin collection. Well now im out and im so gonna bury him. Im gonna hurt him when he least expects it. Gonna bury him Alive. He's gonna pay for every single thing that he did. That fucking ass gigolo who can't keep his pants zipped. I'm gonna squeeze his balls till there's no 'juice' left to squeeze out.