1/20 of me is yours to keep

ahh..this day may have started out the usual boring tired one but it was nice. 29th of february. shall i forget? i dont know. left to be seen. maybe.. i will

It feels good again.
To know you're next to me.
Acting like we did in high school.
Our childish behavior running a mock and laughing in the corridor.
Being with you brings back those times.
Oh how i miss them..
but are forever cherished.
i called you out today...
not knowing if you'd come.
got a surprise to see you reply my msg.
we didn't do much
and kept to ourselves.
but that was only because i had another
and that would be awkward.
however sitting next to you..
made me realize..
i wanted to hold you so badly
feel the touch of your palm against mine
but it just couldn't happen.
Dont worry ...one day it will
i hope...
it was so nice seeing you again
may it be just the beginning of many get-togethers.

Rescission in Agreements

i skipped class today. considering i only had law. had to do an essay- hand it in by today. but i don't completely understand it. cuz the final question is just a yes or no answer. i dont know how to turn that into an essay. Something to do with Rescission- The right of an individual involved within a contract to return to the identical state as before they entered into the agreement, due to courts not recognizing the contract as legally binding. i dont wanna start writing an essay on this then finding out the anwer is completely wrong. bleh.. im getting ... not gonna say it. oh its minhtuts birthday today. happy birhtday min!!!! well dont think he's gonna see this. aite signing out. ciao. till next time. get to read the juices.

History Repeats Itself

"I have a dream that my four children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the colour of their skin, but by the content in their character."

-Dr Martin Luther King

[1963]

it makes me sick to think about these things and knowing they're still taking place. once long ago in peoples culture there is a gap in society. women in afghan territories are forced to cover up every single part of their bodies showing no skin except their eyes/face. Indians are not allowed to marry a man outside their race. if someone did so they were both put to death. women were even sold to marry and the father of the bride would get paid for it. even to this day people are not getting the right treatment they deserve.

[recent occurs] black muslims are allowed in malaysia to work and stay as long as they want. but black christians?? not quite the same. they're allowed in malaysia but are sent back after a year or so. A black muslim woman was sentenced to death just because she got pregnant without getting married. and the boyfriend ran away. is this justice?? it might not be totally related to Luther kings famous phrase but there is a connection. sometimes people judge others by the colour of their skin and not how deep a position their in/character. who will be so bold change history? yet again.

Realizing

For awhile now i've been thinking about something. After i graduated from high school i left all my friends behind. Now being in a relationship has made me realize- I've got no one. No one to talk to like i once had. No one to share itty bitty secrets with. No one to turn to when something bad happens in my family or with this relationship. Its like the whole world has got a bunch of new friends and i never got the notice and now friends are actually running out. Its like it all happened in one day, someone had a party and forgot to invite me. It never use to be like this. I had best friends just a few months ago. But it's not the same anymore. They've got each other to rely on. Feels like there's a photo of the three of us and i've been cut out. But what happens if i don't have ed? What happens if im the only one- Alone. Not in a relationship. No one to talk to. No one to turn to. No one to lend a shoulder to cry upon. People are moving on with their lives- without me. I'm beginnning to see how much i could hate my life right now. Hate moving on the college. Hate leaving the ones i loved. Hate not realizing those who really wanted to be close to me. I'm sorry i turned away.

-What a Day [Valentines]-

The many disasters you wouldn't have expected to happen to you on such an ocassion:-

1. Firstly the bus breaks down in the morning and my brother&I had to scream at mom to drop us. On the way we passes teh bus and it turned out there were still students in there. Poor things they onnly reached school around 8am.

2. Then around 12 i went for lunch with ash and sha where at 3.30 we were suppose to go for a game of badminton. Brought our rackets and everything. Called nat and she didn't wanna come- i think she was emo or just lazy since she was still sleeping when sha called her.

3. I was kinda moody since edwin took his own sweet time to get to asia cafe from subang. It felt like half an hour when i can just walk and reach in 10 mins. ok i know im braging but who doesn't..am i right ash?? you're prolly not even reading this.

4. When walking back to ash's car i noticed glass on the left back seat. Ed was already standing on that side of the car and didnt even notice that the glass was broken until i yelled. There was a screwdriver which they used to break the glass and just left it in the car. Im seriously cursing those hooligans. Every single bag was taken. Which only contained our badminton rackets and books. We had our phones and wallets with us(thank goodness). Even sha's and ash's valentines present were gone. I feel so bad for you guys.

That really killed our mood for the day. The poor things couldn't feel the emotion of the day but had to go home to worrying about the lost belongings. Atleast i didn't end up like that. If i hadn't gone out that night i would have felt the same. Spent loads a cash on dinner and had to get groceries. We had alot of time since the movie only started at 11:30pm. Watched Jumper- Its a damn good show i assure you:)

[Happy Valentines]

Settling In

I think i like where im at right now. Study-wise i mean. Taking up Business Studies, Economics and Law. Probably gonna major in law. But you know how i can change my mind in an instant. however my moms routing for me to do law. since we might be studying overseas she wants me to finish my a'levels here and move up. i think i can just move up straight away. wanna get out of this damn country. I don't see a future for me here. Just more pain and agony. There is just one reason to keep me down here. But if i had to chose within one important circumstance and another not so important i would probably chose the important one don't you think. I've already put myself out there a couple a times. And still dissapointed with the result. Sometimes i throw a fit because i show i don't want to do something. And people don't understand why i'm doing so except for the obvious reason which is maybe because im lazy. Well im sick of hearing all this when it wasn't even on me to begin with. Sometimes i just feel like causing such scrutinizing pain on whoever who deserves it that they wouldn't want to have anything to do with what matters in their lives. And even so that in creates a scar through them deep down inside that they won't forget who put it there.

You Underastimate Me

I seem dazed these days. things keep happening and i can't understand why. I'm beginning to have these weird dreams where i see myself in another mans arms. This can't be so because i'm already deep deep in luv and the other is too. This canot be faith. Why are you taunting me?? Well i trusted you with all this. Not anymore. Another one comes i'm just going to let it slide. I've got a life now. A good one. i'm gonna stick to it and make it work. No matter what happens..

My Special Birth-day*

spent the day in utter awe. Place: Pavillion. Frens totally surprised me at tgifriday's by making me stand on a chair like a nut and singing happy birthday. And an icecream for a cake:)

At TgiFridays


Outside the cinema couldn't decide what movie to watch..started taking photos. in the end didn't watch anything. hehe
A birthday kiss from dear den...

Blur and Bubbly..

Window shopping...

Went Suyin's house for cny party. good food and a whole bunch of wishes for me:P Yin baked me a delicious cheesecake..which i had trouble cutting through. :D But all in all...this was a great way to begin my 18th year. love all ya'll

Ser playing the piano..
Den trying to...hee hee

wasn't posing here..she was actually wacthing tv. hehe.

Another birthday kiss..


Trying to pose like a model..not quite there yet dearie. hehe.
I love my peeps:)

Didn't work out so had to take again...

"1st Feb 08"