Didn't Deserve

Aching.

Deep inside I was aching.

Thought i had him.
Had him to hold.

Had him to keep.
Had him to love.
In my mind, he was mine.
All mine.

Didnt' even think about his background.

Didn't think it would matter.

After all i had him.

Even if it was just for a little while.

But I wanted more.

More than he could offer.

He then had another.

In which his heart really desired but lost

Blinded was i for i couldn't see the desperation

In his eyes it was shown clearly.

But i chose to ignore it.

Now knowing that he was on the rebound.

My heart sank

Regreting the day we met.

The day it occured.

I let him take charge.

That bastard almost made me loose something precious.

He didn't deserve to be the first.

He didn't deserve to see anything.

To have anything.

To have me.