I've Got Sparkle in my Eyes!

Scars

2009-06-25T10:24:00.006+08:00

My mind distracted.
Thinking about him, i scribbled on a piece of paper.
I coloured in the holes.
Picked it up and it read ' BASTARD'.
I was not at ease. Couldn't work. Tried to read more into what i was doing at work. Tried to learn the meaning of the term Bill of Lading as its something to do with what my work involves. Read the first line.. as i began to read the second.. my mind started to drift off. Wondering why am i feeling this way. Im supposed to feel angry, revengeful. but all is aching.
Im in pain.
I have done so many things. was it all for nothing?!
When will this ache go away?
Why do i feel like i've got nothing left.
Where are you when i need you??
Im screaming, does no one hear my cry?

happy 11th month

2009-06-23T10:34:00.004+08:00

old scars, open wounds, go deeper, the pain and torture..continues. there is no end to this. there wasn't a begining. he laid with another. and with her and the same time. the one in pain had no clue. and he just kept on laying with others.. and he continued to pretend that she was the only one he laid with. to her anyway.. she believed it. months passed. he may have stopped for awhile. but it was never truly over and done with with the others. she knew about the others though.. found one.. then another. couldn't really prove it. until it hit him in the face. he knew that if she found out nothing would be the same. it may seem that this man may not have told her all this because he was afraid to lose her. but no! he didn't tell her because he still wanted to see those women. he continued his relations with those other women. 'keep us a secret' he'd tell em. for one night they'd meet again when his supposed girlfriend is out of town. she continues to see him. people tell her. you're stupid he will never change. but she had no one. she's in a pickle you could say. he told her things would change when she found a note of him and one of his lovers exchanging sexual emotions. that he didn't mean a word he said. but the thing was.. it was the truth. he did lay with her.. so what didn't he mean? he promised her things then for he had said he didn't want to lose her. it seemed believable. however all broken promises. one after another.. it just kept coming. she knew he didn't mean a word and just wanted to hurt him so bad. but how could she? she would go mad after that. she loved him. she ached inside on finding the news. she really believed she was the only one. trusted him. believed his proken promises. was always let down but still believed in him. what was she to do. she had no one to turn to. and this time she really didn't.

-someone close to me inspired me to write this. thank u.

Hopeless Case

2009-01-28T15:50:00.003+08:00

Can't wait till this is over.
how could i be so foolish to thinkim the only one.
ofcourse there are others
and if not others
atleast one- the slut
the worst part is
i can't do anything about it
just sit and watch what happens
what is going on while he sees me
and her behind my back
is there no end to this?
yes there will be
one day
without no knowledge.
what can i say?
we were never together in the first place
so if i leave.. it would make no difference
cuz even if i was there
i wasn't

i know this doesn't make any sense.
so just ignore it.

how can u hurt when you have never loved?

+_+

2008-10-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

Too busy for this. Next post prolly in feb.

There are asses.. and then there's not so asses

2008-09-18T02:14:00.005+08:00

Its been awhile.. since then alot has changed. And i mean alot! i'm single..yes i know thank god. the last one was a nightmare. shit ass thought he could ruin me by stealing my stuff, my cash and goodness knows what else. and look who's in the ditch. anyways i dont give a shit abt him. hopefully he gets what he deserves but im not going to judge. I'm happy now. i've got my frens and this other guy i just met:P hahah.. now im packed with studies in november. got my wonderful SATs to look forward to. A'levels as well. just can't wait till i leave this country. oh well.. things dont ever work out the way i want them to.

Troubled

2008-06-05T05:10:00.003+08:00

Nobody died. Nobody was badly injured. She had been acting up with the ones she cared about. She pushed away her friends to hang out with her boyfriend. She had hissy fits and argued with her mom most of which concerned her boyfriend. She was very close with her mom. To her, her mom was a hero, her soldier, her armour. She idolized her to the very most. But recently things turned... The last fight they had ended in her using foul language against her. All because of her boyfriend. And now where is he. He ran away from her. After she took sides with him against everybody else.. he did this to her. She loved him so. Now she's broken. And her relationship with her mom.. she yearns to have what she once did. she so badly wants to apologize..but..

can't continue. no reason. just stuck. another write up.

Windows opening, slamming shut. constant noise parades throughout the whole house. bickering, nagging. Up into the very corners of her unsound mind. Her head spins. Eyes wide- looking from left to right in a very haunting, fast pace. Tears roll down her troubled dark face. Crouching on the floor in the very edge of the room. Knees held tight to her face by her shaking hands. As the noise of slamming windows increased in volume she hides her head between her legs and chest. A loud thud comes from just outside her room.

Love and Hate all in one day..

2008-06-01T14:10:00.011+08:00

30th June 08, Friday Night-
No matter what happens we'll always be there for each other...

whoops!

kisses for you..

marks from really high heels. ouch

sweet nat..

me messy

yea she was the first one to fall asleep and the first to get on our nerves. haha. we love you babe!!

Another Performance..

2008-05-23T21:26:00.006+08:00

busy busy bee.. may 18th. another charity event. at westin hotel. IBU.

Performing with BlackRose

2008-05-13T23:26:00.007+08:00

Date: 9th May 08

Location: KL Convention Centre, Planery Hall 6.

Occasion: Charity Event

Lily, Georgina, Gabby, Aida and me

Aida
Atiqah
Gabriella

Georgina&I

Auditorium

I love you daddy :|

2008-05-05T23:04:00.004+08:00

have to go for driving school tomorrow. and the car's got hardly any petrol. and the bloody swine proclaimed that he wont give me cash anymore. i just take a taxi to his god forsaken clinic, he'll pay of the taxi then he'll send me to wherever i wanna go when ever he feels like it. for him its when he's done with his patients and after he gives me two hours of lecturing in front of his nurse.
so i message the bloody swine and he calls me after an hour or so.. said that he knew my mom was in india and he purposely asked me to see if i'd tell him what he thinks is the truth. but mom told us to say penang and he keeps thinking that she's in india so be it. i just asked him how he knows you know just make him feel smart cuz you know she wasn't really there..and he tells me today that i've got no respect for him and i've fallen into the path of eve(according to him it is a grave sin which you can't come out of when eve took the apple from the tree). he said that he asked my sis and she straight away said india(yea he thinks shes so good. she even took so long to tell him. and she only said it cuz you wanted to hear it. if you never asked she wouldn't be bothered to tell you. you said i demand for money and things and you get only ask a few things and you never get it..how the hell would you know if im doin it or not? i dont preach every single thing i do.. and i dont demand for things this is life i've gotta live here.
he started shouting at me and talking about things that happened from when i was born to now. while on the phone i wrote down some stuff on a small piece a paper..the following:
You bloody B. How dare i ask you who told you where mom is? she wasn't even where you thought she was and.. who is the evil im surrounded with? oh its you my dear wonderful father. shocked because i lied to you? omg you talking like you've never told a soul in you whole entire life. bloody B who the hell are you to assume and tell everyone that i dont pray and all. who do you think u are to make all those presumptions about me. "if you love money you will hate god" ?? i've never heard of such bullshit. yea now only you talk to me about finding cig buds outside my window. yea keep thinking i smoke i dont care. it wasn't even me. just another idiot who can't clean up after himself. gosh he reminds me of you.. sorry to bring you in this. i dont fuckin care what you think.

Hit me like them girls^ wheee.!!

2008-05-03T13:14:00.015+08:00

1st May O8

2008-05-01T22:59:00.003+08:00

Went rock climbing for the first time today. it was so tiring and painful. my muscles are all aching.. well not now but they will be im sure. its was a blast and i'd love to go again ppl!!
some pics of us at summits rock climbing gym. though didn't get any of me on the wall. nvm will have next time:)

Triff, sha, me

ash looking like a grumpy puss.

on thursday at around 1am left for loft.. hehe. didn't drink but it was fun. hope to see you more often eunice:)

eeee..too much concealer.. i look like a powder monkey.

Eunice&I

Presents!!!:D

2008-04-29T23:56:00.008+08:00

mom came back from abroad today- and was moody... but somehow gave in:) and gave us pweetie gifts she bought from america!!

my i-Pod!! whee..finally get one at the age of 18..thats sad. heehee. i still love it!!!

Sherms i-pod..black! nicee

shoes! shoes! and more shoes!! :D two pairs of adidas and 1 of converse. yay!

some cheap earrings as you can see..but its pretty!!

sports bra..and a skirt which was a present from moms fren in US. but its super tight. kiddie size! haha

oh how sweet you are..i shall declare my love to you..

sherms hoodie blazer..

another jacket..sherman's hair is like indian + afro..hahah

malaysian spokesmodel for adidas.. bleh..hehehe

whee..

...

2008-04-28T23:54:00.005+08:00

You screw up my frienster, change all the settings, change my password and email so i can't log in and over that the email was your ex's. so what does that tell me. though u dumped her you're still not over her. or was it u that broke it off in the first place? anyways this aint abt her. u made me see you in a different way. when i asked u kindly to change it back u said dont talk to me and then you call me names and shit.
after i ask what happened to you u start apologizing. ok fine you said you're sorry and its been a whole day since then and you still haven't changed my friendster back to the way it was.
anyways i just dont care, i dont wanna get involved in your shit and all in all im just not gonna get involved with you anymore.

(^)

2008-04-27T01:46:00.005+08:00

Edwin Loon- what can i say abt this guy. he's a fucked up bastard!! all i did was be nice to him. i gave him almost everything i could. i bought things for him, paid for him, let him stay over my house whenever he wanted to and what does he do? accuse me of doin things i never did! and today!! -having another number?! and over that saying why did i do that? what the hell does that mean ? what did i do? how can he think that? after all i've fuckin done for him!! that bastard! i never even got another number..even if i did so what? WTF IS HIS PROBLEM!! go and fuckin die u fucked up piece of shit! i never wanna see or hear from you ever again! and i meant what i said in that letter. all u think abt is yourself. u just use ppl. use them for money! for anything you can get out of them!! you're SELFISH, OBSESSIVE, GREEDY, CONTROLLING, DISGUSTING..YOU'RE JUST ERGH!!!

4/26/2008
4:43:52 PM

~ ™ eB dL wA iN nK ™ ~
i already knew it was you from the begining
~ ™ eB dL wA iN nK ™ ~
why u wanna go n do that
R~ withered
where u getting all this fucked up information from huh?
R~ withered
think whatever u wanna think
~ ™ eB dL wA iN nK ™ ~
that was the plan anyways
~ ™ eB dL wA iN nK ™ ~
just wanted to screw u a lil more

you have no idea how much u hurt me. i tried to let this go as easy as possible. but you're so fuckin screwed up u can't end it without a fight. well are you happy now huh!!
the worst mistake i've ever done in my entire life was fall for someone as wicked as you!

Her*

2008-04-22T16:14:00.004+08:00

There she was.. in a distance. the lights were everywhere..moving..in different colours. it may have seemed to be a club. but it was her* friend's house. she brought me along. made me think that we were finally becoming friends after the continuous ditching and silence between us. i always wondered if there was something weird going on.. she always stared..then looked away. and smiled once in awhile. i found it uneasy but she was so pretty when she did. so i followed her the the party. and we were dancing together. all of a sudden she started kissing me. at first it was the cheek. so i didn't think anything of it and i gave her* a peck back on hers. then she eased closer and kissed me on the lips..i looked at her*. but she was distracted by the music and crowd-just kept on dancing not looking at me. so i ignored it and kept on dancing. after awhile i felt something nibbling my neck. it was her*. she was all over my face. making out and nibbling my skin at the same time. i don't know why but i ended up doing the same to her*. she was too hot. how could i not? at the end of the evening we were an item. i heard her friends "what is she doing with that girl? she heard it too. didn't seem to care what they said. i began to feel awkward. what am i getting myself into?

Shopping!!

2008-04-20T18:06:00.005+08:00

went shopping with dad today. Awkward! hehe. got most necessities which was not much. then i bought bras and it turns out im not a size B75 anymore. Im now size D70!!! that was super weird. i got a few sexy lacy ones..oo0o.. and mathching panties:) hehehe. but the sad thing was that i couldn't get the sports bra from lasenza that i wanted because they sent the stock back to the warehouse. damn it!! should have bought it the last time i saw it. @$!&%!!!!!

i got myself a new camera!! panasonic lumix. wanted to get the latest sony cybershot but then got one that was much better for the same price. rm1440.

two weeks later.....

i find out that by bra size is still b. its just that one type of bra brand-xixili which has doubled the size...but still the same. oh and the camera is not that great. regret canging my mind should have just goten cybershot one. but what to do now. cannot exchange.

SK Concert/ Outing.

2008-04-14T16:08:00.006+08:00

11/4/o8. Sean kingston concert. we buggers went late and so missed the whole thing except for the last two songs. after zouk we landed the great volvo 240GL at Heritage. After that everything was just screwed up. ed's fren joel started talking nonsense about this and that.

Begining to See

2008-04-09T17:10:00.002+08:00

You can make me whole again..

I'm actually quite glad its over.

I just couldn't take it anymore.

..the wrappers on my study table, the used plates on the counter, the dirty footprints on the mattress, the open shower foam bottle, the bucket left in the tub, the towel not spread out when its wet, my cup on the coffee table, the dining table chairs not in place, the smashed cigarette sticks on the floor.. need i go on?

i know I'm not perfect. i know I'm messy sometimes. But this is just too much.

there are idiots out there probably thinking that I'm just fussy but i don't give a shit about what you think.

if you think like that you obviously don't know me and don't care about me.

i desperately need to talk to someone:(

Finally Got It Through

2008-04-02T16:10:00.002+08:00

i agree with you. the way you handled it was kinda cool. wasn't really what i was expecting..as you can see. but its good. and we're still close. too close in fact but who gives a damn. not like anyone of us gonna be hookin up soon.. right? hehe*

Touching*

2008-03-29T15:55:00.005+08:00

damn if only i had kept those msges for abit longer. aite heres how it goes..sorta

chatting online-

r: so when u gonna kiss me?
hidden: y?
r: no reason. just asking.
hidden: after you push me.. malu
r: what? i never pushed you!!
hidden: why do u want me to?
r: no no come to think of it i dont want you to.
hidden: haha. why?
r: err..cuz you dont want to.
hidden: haha. i want to.
r: what! i mean yeah ofcourse u want to i knew that. jeez
hidden: what do u want me to say. would u allow me?
r: allow u to? kiss me?
hidden: brb
r: i gtg anyways.
r: yeah and i guess i would allow you to.

after going offline..r got an sms..

hidden: you would allow me?? lol
r: err..yea i would. but i dont even know if you're interested.
hidden: are you?
r: yes i am.
hidden: why? just asking.
r: i dunno. its just the first time we went out i've been interested but you weren't so i just kept to myself.
hidden: i was interested. you wanna find out how remember i told u i wanna lose my virginity to you.
r: oh w0w! really. actually i felt the same way.
hidden: yea and all u said was im honored.
r: aite well thats in the past. i tot u were playing. anyways ..

yes thats the story. you could think of it as something i just made up for fun or something that is real and going on as we speak... either way..its nothing. so somebody better not get mad.

Confusion gets to all of us.

2008-03-23T23:58:00.002+08:00

I’ve been thinking. Yeah I do that a lot. Surprising huh? I know we’ve been apart for a couple of days. I’ve finally gotten to clear my mind without your voice breathing down my neck every few hours. And fine I may have went to seek advice from a friend. And what I’ve come to is this- it’s so much better if we just remain friends and I really want to be close to you. I’ve just been so down these couple of months I can’t take another fight or argument. I know we’re very much in love but I feel that I’m beginning to hate you more than love you. Does that make any sense? Though sometimes you very well know how to pull me back and make it seem all right but its not. You just can’t erase what has happened. We’ve gone through too much shit to make it disappear. Sure we’ve had good times but that’s not enough to make the bad times subside. Not with me I just don’t forget. I know its harsh but I’m the type of person who doesn’t forget when a person acts so mean and rude to me I keep it inside. I try to do my best to act like im fine with it. Normally I am but not in this case. I’m so sorry but too much has been going on. You’ve been away for a few days and I actually feel... Relieved. I feel good to know that we’re friends. I’m just scared cuz….i haven’t broken the news to you yet. I hope u can take it. But you’ve been expecting it anyway right? Im sorry.
You know what I think this is good. Im sure you wont cry like you did when you and your ex broke up. I mean that was a real damn nice heck of a relationship wasn’t it. Well that’s what you keep telling me abt her and so I just put together that it is..i mean was. ®
but then again.. i take it all back??

Torch Lights

2008-03-18T21:34:00.003+08:00

how do i make this sound less obvious..hmm
there are two torch lights..one is dimming and the other one is getting brighter little by little.
the one that is dimming still has a chance. its batteries can be change. but what if the batteries are not the problem. maybe it's got a loose connection. or the wiring is not set right. it doesn't get any brighter but continues to dim. does the user chuck it away and get another one or does he fix it over and over again?
and how about the light that is bright. its not that far ahead and it doesn't look too great either. it could be what the user wants it to be. even more brighter with full charged batteries. though it gets brighter little by little its not jumping to the extent that it could be. is it playing around with the user's mind? now put this in reality..basing this on something much more then it seems.
get the picture?

Flo Rida ft. T-Pain - Low [currnt addiction]

2008-03-11T18:45:00.003+08:00

hmm..
i seem to be repeating posts.
i guess im starting to get boring.
im not entertaining no more!!! (sobs*)
oh i had a dream this morning after coming back from school.
its was about this guy who kept changing his picture back to his ex.
and he has a current gf where their very obssesed about each other.
why the hell am i dreaming abt this when i've got nothing to do with it??
anyways yeah thats about it.
day by day im running out of things to write.
hopefully next month will be better.

ps denise i can make it to your blog but i forgot the password:D
hehe. give it to me baby!!!

A very Naughty Dream

2008-03-06T15:40:00.002+08:00

i know him..
he knows me..
has feelings?
i don't know
maybe he does
but chooses to ignore it..
whyy?!?!

was counting the days until my mom would leave to america. but it turns out she might not even go. @#$%!!! owh well..

i had a dream. It was kinda naughty..and maybe i liked it. I won't tell you what happened..and with who it happened with. If you really wanna know.... dum dum dum..
just come ask me la. hahah

-The Daily Rhea-

2008-03-03T12:49:00.003+08:00

Why do people feel like if they don't see each other for a long time in a relationship..their doomed!!? i think its totally fine. infact its even good to have long breaks in between. just to test how strong it is. but'll it'll definitely fail if all one party wants to do is bang bang all the way. hahaha. In that case i always just let em' go. Fly!!!

p.s- To den and serra. thanks for commenting on my post. i know you guys are always there. I am always here too:) Missing ya'll like hell!! Love you to bits!!!

p.s.s- Serra!!! you wrote about discrimination just like i did!! you copy cat!! hahaha. just kidding. we can share. thats what its all about isn't it. we all need a topic to write about anyways. and stop trying to beat me you're already ahead by more than a hundred. hahaha. denise!!! i still can't read your blog!! sheesh!!!!

1/20 of me is yours to keep

2008-02-29T18:49:00.004+08:00

ahh..this day may have started out the usual boring tired one but it was nice. 29th of february. shall i forget? i dont know. left to be seen. maybe.. i will

It feels good again.
To know you're next to me.
Acting like we did in high school.
Our childish behavior running a mock and laughing in the corridor.
Being with you brings back those times.
Oh how i miss them..
but are forever cherished.
i called you out today...
not knowing if you'd come.
got a surprise to see you reply my msg.
we didn't do much
and kept to ourselves.
but that was only because i had another
and that would be awkward.
however sitting next to you..
made me realize..
i wanted to hold you so badly
feel the touch of your palm against mine
but it just couldn't happen.
Dont worry ...one day it will
i hope...
it was so nice seeing you again
may it be just the beginning of many get-togethers.

Rescission in Agreements

2008-02-28T17:53:00.002+08:00

i skipped class today. considering i only had law. had to do an essay- hand it in by today. but i don't completely understand it. cuz the final question is just a yes or no answer. i dont know how to turn that into an essay. Something to do with Rescission- The right of an individual involved within a contract to return to the identical state as before they entered into the agreement, due to courts not recognizing the contract as legally binding. i dont wanna start writing an essay on this then finding out the anwer is completely wrong. bleh.. im getting ... not gonna say it. oh its minhtuts birthday today. happy birhtday min!!!! well dont think he's gonna see this. aite signing out. ciao. till next time. get to read the juices.

History Repeats Itself

2008-02-26T21:56:00.010+08:00

"I have a dream that my four children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the colour of their skin, but by the content in their character."

-Dr Martin Luther King

[1963]

it makes me sick to think about these things and knowing they're still taking place. once long ago in peoples culture there is a gap in society. women in afghan territories are forced to cover up every single part of their bodies showing no skin except their eyes/face. Indians are not allowed to marry a man outside their race. if someone did so they were both put to death. women were even sold to marry and the father of the bride would get paid for it. even to this day people are not getting the right treatment they deserve.

[recent occurs] black muslims are allowed in malaysia to work and stay as long as they want. but black christians?? not quite the same. they're allowed in malaysia but are sent back after a year or so. A black muslim woman was sentenced to death just because she got pregnant without getting married. and the boyfriend ran away. is this justice?? it might not be totally related to Luther kings famous phrase but there is a connection. sometimes people judge others by the colour of their skin and not how deep a position their in/character. who will be so bold change history? yet again.

Realizing

2008-02-22T23:16:00.003+08:00

For awhile now i've been thinking about something. After i graduated from high school i left all my friends behind. Now being in a relationship has made me realize- I've got no one. No one to talk to like i once had. No one to share itty bitty secrets with. No one to turn to when something bad happens in my family or with this relationship. Its like the whole world has got a bunch of new friends and i never got the notice and now friends are actually running out. Its like it all happened in one day, someone had a party and forgot to invite me. It never use to be like this. I had best friends just a few months ago. But it's not the same anymore. They've got each other to rely on. Feels like there's a photo of the three of us and i've been cut out. But what happens if i don't have ed? What happens if im the only one- Alone. Not in a relationship. No one to talk to. No one to turn to. No one to lend a shoulder to cry upon. People are moving on with their lives- without me. I'm beginnning to see how much i could hate my life right now. Hate moving on the college. Hate leaving the ones i loved. Hate not realizing those who really wanted to be close to me. I'm sorry i turned away.

-What a Day [Valentines]-

2008-02-15T23:36:00.007+08:00

The many disasters you wouldn't have expected to happen to you on such an ocassion:-

1. Firstly the bus breaks down in the morning and my brother&I had to scream at mom to drop us. On the way we passes teh bus and it turned out there were still students in there. Poor things they onnly reached school around 8am.

2. Then around 12 i went for lunch with ash and sha where at 3.30 we were suppose to go for a game of badminton. Brought our rackets and everything. Called nat and she didn't wanna come- i think she was emo or just lazy since she was still sleeping when sha called her.

3. I was kinda moody since edwin took his own sweet time to get to asia cafe from subang. It felt like half an hour when i can just walk and reach in 10 mins. ok i know im braging but who doesn't..am i right ash?? you're prolly not even reading this.

4. When walking back to ash's car i noticed glass on the left back seat. Ed was already standing on that side of the car and didnt even notice that the glass was broken until i yelled. There was a screwdriver which they used to break the glass and just left it in the car. Im seriously cursing those hooligans. Every single bag was taken. Which only contained our badminton rackets and books. We had our phones and wallets with us(thank goodness). Even sha's and ash's valentines present were gone. I feel so bad for you guys.

That really killed our mood for the day. The poor things couldn't feel the emotion of the day but had to go home to worrying about the lost belongings. Atleast i didn't end up like that. If i hadn't gone out that night i would have felt the same. Spent loads a cash on dinner and had to get groceries. We had alot of time since the movie only started at 11:30pm. Watched Jumper- Its a damn good show i assure you:)

[Happy Valentines]

Settling In

2008-02-12T23:45:00.001+08:00

I think i like where im at right now. Study-wise i mean. Taking up Business Studies, Economics and Law. Probably gonna major in law. But you know how i can change my mind in an instant. however my moms routing for me to do law. since we might be studying overseas she wants me to finish my a'levels here and move up. i think i can just move up straight away. wanna get out of this damn country. I don't see a future for me here. Just more pain and agony. There is just one reason to keep me down here. But if i had to chose within one important circumstance and another not so important i would probably chose the important one don't you think. I've already put myself out there a couple a times. And still dissapointed with the result. Sometimes i throw a fit because i show i don't want to do something. And people don't understand why i'm doing so except for the obvious reason which is maybe because im lazy. Well im sick of hearing all this when it wasn't even on me to begin with. Sometimes i just feel like causing such scrutinizing pain on whoever who deserves it that they wouldn't want to have anything to do with what matters in their lives. And even so that in creates a scar through them deep down inside that they won't forget who put it there.

You Underastimate Me

2008-02-10T15:26:00.000+08:00

I seem dazed these days. things keep happening and i can't understand why. I'm beginning to have these weird dreams where i see myself in another mans arms. This can't be so because i'm already deep deep in luv and the other is too. This canot be faith. Why are you taunting me?? Well i trusted you with all this. Not anymore. Another one comes i'm just going to let it slide. I've got a life now. A good one. i'm gonna stick to it and make it work. No matter what happens..

My Special Birth-day*

2008-02-10T00:28:00.001+08:00

spent the day in utter awe. Place: Pavillion. Frens totally surprised me at tgifriday's by making me stand on a chair like a nut and singing happy birthday. And an icecream for a cake:)

At TgiFridays

Outside the cinema couldn't decide what movie to watch..started taking photos. in the end didn't watch anything. hehe
A birthday kiss from dear den...

Blur and Bubbly..

Window shopping...

Went Suyin's house for cny party. good food and a whole bunch of wishes for me:P Yin baked me a delicious cheesecake..which i had trouble cutting through. :D But all in all...this was a great way to begin my 18th year. love all ya'll

Ser playing the piano..
Den trying to...hee hee

wasn't posing here..she was actually wacthing tv. hehe.

Another birthday kiss..

Trying to pose like a model..not quite there yet dearie. hehe.
I love my peeps:)

Didn't work out so had to take again...

"1st Feb 08"

2008-02-05T16:15:00.000+08:00

=Newsflash=

2008-01-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

Aite ppl...since so many of ya'll keep asking me about it.
the breakup was not official.
just lasted for a day.
u see my dear eddi can't live without me.
hahah. ok ok it was the other way round.
aite then. im blank again.
dont worry more coming your way.
=]

No Air

2008-01-24T20:01:00.000+08:00

This song summarizes how I've been feeling for the past few mins.. Listen to the words!!!

Tell me how im supposed to breathe with no air (air)Oooh....

(Verse 1)

[ Jordin S.]

If i

should die

before I wake

Its cause

you took

my breath

away

losing you is like living in a world with no airOhhh...

[ Chris B.]

Im here alone

didnt want to leave

My heart won't move its incomplete

wish there was a way that i can get you to understand

(Pre-Chorus)

But How

Do you expect me

To live alone with just me

Cause my world revolves around you

its so hard for me to breathe

(Chorus)

Tell Me How im supposed to breathe with no air

Can't live can't breathe with no air

thats how i feel whenever you ain't there

Its No Air No Air

Got me out here and the water so deep

Tell me how you gon be without me

if you ain't here i just can't breathe

Its No Air No Air

No air air (ohhhh)

No air air (noooo)

No air air (ohhhh)

No air air

( Verse 2 )

[ Chris B.]

I Walked

I Ran

I Jumped

I Flew

Right off the ground

To float to you

Theres no gravity

To hold me down

For real

[Jordin S.]

But Somehow

Im still alive inside

You took my breath

But i survived

I don't know how

But i don't even care

(Pre-Chorus)

So How (How)

Do you expect me (Me)

To live alone with just me (Ohh)

Cause my world revolves around you

its so hard for me to breathe

( Chorus)

Tell Me How im supposed to breathe with no air (ohhhh)

Can't live can't breathe with no air (ohhh)

thats how i feel whenever you ain't there

Its No Air No Air

Got me out here and the water so deep (So deep)

Tell me how you gon be without me (Without Me Yeahhh)

if you ain't here i just can't breathe

Its No Air No AirNo air air (ohhhh)

No air air (ohhhh)

No air air (No More)

uhh uhh uhh

No Air (ohhh)

uhh uhh uhh (Baby)

No Air (ohhh)

h uhh uhh

No Air

Its No Air No Air

Heyyy..

Oooooo..

No AiiiiiirOooooo..

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

(Chorus)

Tell Me How im supposed to breathe with no air (ohhhh)

Can't live can't breathe with no air

thats how i feel whenever you ain't there

Its No Air No Air

Got me out here and the water so deep (So deep)

Tell me how you gon be without me (Without Me Yeahhh)

if you ain't here i just can't breathe

Its No Air No Air

Do you expect me

To live alone with just me

Cause my world revolves around you

its so hard for me to breathe

(Chorus)

Tell Me How im supposed to breathe with no air (ohhhh)

Can't live can't breathe with no air

thats how i feel whenever you ain't there

Its No Air No Air

[ Jordin S.]

Got me out here and the water so deep

[ Chris B.]

Tell me how you gon be without me

[ Jordin S.]

if you ain't here i just can't breathe

[Both]

Its No Air No AirNo air air (ohh)

No air air (ohh)

No air air (No air)

[Both]

No Air...

It's Over?

2008-01-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

Darn if only i had recorded the conversation last night i prolly would not be making this stuff up. well not totally but yeah this part is true. I think..yeah..we broke up [24/01/08-03.15am] and then i think we got back together again after talking nonsense for an hour or so. or maybe we didn't get back together? ok so now its still the 24th but o6.07pm and we've not called or msged each other. and im not definitely not gonna be the one doing so and he's certainly not going to as well. he's probably out in asia playing snooker or something so yeah he's mind is off it. and plus last night i msged him 'i love you..sleep tight:)' and he replies 'you sleep well too' so yeah the break up's official. hmm...kinda miss having someone to talk to though. And waste my credit on :(

Happy Birthday SHA*

2008-01-20T01:00:00.000+08:00

You may have your ways-
: wearing shorts that are just to high above the knees..
: belching and burping in public
: showing off that cleavage
: smoking! =(sniff*sob*sniff)

And the good things about you..
: being so caring towards all of us.
: calling me for the first time in months and giving me a shock that you actually did!
: the bossy-ness that makes us quake in our shoes:) in a good way of course.
: drinking so much when you don't even know your limit but you just do it anyways
: having frens like us :P

Just being the special gal that you are is enough to set fire on those who dare be enemies with you.

No matter what, you must promise that we all stick together. From now till end of time. Even when our skin is flaking, hair getting greyer and falling off :) Till then do we part.

To my dear friend sha*
with oh so much love
[Happy Birthday]

[Lagoon] Again!! <19th Jan 08'>

2008-01-20T00:48:00.000+08:00

Was definitely better then the last time. we were actually sober..except for sha's cuz ivan who prolly had a lil to much to drink last night. 0oh! and he reguested for me to be there..hmm.. i wonder. hehe. aite sha today was a blast thanks for not listening to our griefs and forcing us to come:D . oh vid we missed you!! have fun in sabahXP. hehe.

The following- weird pics~ caught in the moment..

Raging Hormones;)

2008-01-17T22:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you get this feeling that you're under someones spell or should i say you like someone so bad but he doesn't seem to notice you.

well in this case you have a guy crazy in love with you but you don't quite feel the same way anymore. instead you start to fall for his really close friend or someone else you know. yeah this may be due to your hormones. or maybe your guy is just not treating you right?

Its mostly messed up because this has happened to many hopefuls and they claim to think that this is meant to be when it is actually just lust. well thats what i feel but everyone has their opinion.

Some ppl just make me sick though were they just wanna have sex and dispose off the person the next day. really pisses me off there are such things that exist. But however if both agree to this then that's ok i guess. this was some crappy post. didn't know anything by this. darn i can't wait. got surprises!!

Memories of 2007

2008-01-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

Sorry i don't have to really old ones..my comp got jammed up a couple of times and most of my pics was erased. this is just less than half of it:)

Passion I

2008-01-16T20:31:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday was really fun..see i went to church with ed and Claire. I'm so holy you see making them go church all. and Edwin so didn't want to be there. anyways that wasn't the fun part..fun was what came after. had to go home to dad be all good. then when he left the house i followed Claire, Jul's and ed to mc'd where they ate and i sat there in my ridiculous outfit watching them. Then it was off to passion or what they call it poppy? hahaha. met some of Jul's frens and a girl was really nice to me..although she was 34 but age doesn't matter. plus she looked to young and pretty for her age. anyways took lots a pictures with the group-which i so desperately want. oh and Rodney showed up with his colleague after midnight. dirty dancing with edwin which was funny and painful to watch. i mean come on he's just too good for edwin..ahahaha. kidding dear. the night was fun..hoping to do it again. With the exact same bunch of ppl. or maybe even more:P

[Blank]

2008-01-12T00:39:00.001+08:00

Completely and utterly blank. have no idea what to write sorry dears. been very very blank lately. and this is only my second post this month. im trying to beat my own record of 40 a year. i think i should set a goal. about atleast 8-10 posts a month. hehe.

At mojos with claire and my baby. oh and shaun too, the guy behind the camera.<10th>

Wrong turn

2008-01-08T13:19:00.000+08:00

Last night- I asked god for a sign. give me anything. And i will give it up. I didn't think that it'll come so soon. I already knew that it wasn't meant to be. But i didn't want it to be so. And soon after i went into a deep sleep. My prayer was answered through a dream. everyone was there. except for my baby. i remember especially mon and sha. they both tricked me into thinking that a guy liked me. but he really didn't. i guess that was the sign. haiz..how can things turn out the exact opposite of how you want them to. Sometimes you feel a change coming on and its for the better. then you find out its for somebody else. But at the moment im happy. :)

Signs.

2007-12-30T19:55:00.000+08:00

This cannot be..

The second time.. im having a dream of my dear ed cheating on me.. and why do i keep catching him?? And just walking out of the room like nothing happened. Next time i'll just slap him on his face and throw his clothes out- make him walk around naked. hehe. in my dream ofcourse i wouldn't dare do something like that in real life im just too nice. :D

I recall one part after that he came into my room in the morning acting like nothing occurred. i spat everything out telling him thats its over and i don't wanna see him anymore. completely ignored. followed me where ever i went. i went on like a goose repeating it again and again.

It's Over!!

I surely didn't understand the purpose of the dream. Was it telling me that he's gonna sleep with someone? no i don't think so plus he never fails to tell me how loyal a bf he is. So i guess its just saying that it is gonna end?? i guess. ahh. my mind is turning into fudge. dreams are crack.

An Event i would define as Awesome

2007-12-22T19:52:00.000+08:00

yep a fantastic evening leading to hours of fun. 20th December 07(Thursday). Had too much to drink but definitely not enough to make us say 'im never gonna drink that much again'. hehe. All right the pictures are kinda backwards. From way down to the top. sorry it just took me ages to upload i don't wanna spend any more time on this.

I wanted it so bad!

2007-12-18T20:26:00.000+08:00

There were two islands. one was where the giant animals lay- meat eaters. And the one where i lay were the normal sized human and friendly animals. the two islands were just next to each other. we'd have to do a great deal of swimming to get to the other island. but they could just walk over because they were just so huge. almost every morning a few of the meat eaters would come to our island and grab the poor little animals from our side. some days even humans were snatched. all these were taken for food. we were so terrified of the time when we would hear their tremendous roar. one day i was standing at the edge of the island with the animals because i wanted to witness it. this huge being called 'Krishna' came(wakakakakka). i know unbelievable. he was about to snatch me when the most cutest guy came along. he brought the great beast aside and negotiated with him. saying that this island is very fruitful especially with bananas. so instead o snatching our animals you could have our fruits. the beast agreed and went back to his island with a banana tree. i was so mesmerized with this guy. he was my hero!! but it the dream it seemed like he was my bf too cuz i was talking to him about some girl named Tina and he said that was last time and he'll never cheat on me ever again. wth?? i know!!! anyways we went back to his house. holding hands and smooching. ran into his room, jumped on the bed and then we saw two boys playing in the room. that was just sad. we lay next to each other on the bed. he touched my hand. then i held his hand and started to play with his thumb. ergh!! i was so looking forward to it. but i guess that's the way it has to be. i wonder if this is the past or the future. nah it was prolly the past. aite till next time. adios.

Strangers

2007-12-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

there he lay
i stared at him
he stared back at me
we looked at each other for awhile
and turn our faces away from another
this motion continued for about 3-4 times.
then our group of frens joined.
he walked over to me
we started a chat.
when he smiled his eyes glistened towards the light.
our laughter was together..i shall not forget
we got up to have a walk together
he took my hand
i put my fingers through his
he turned to me
i love you- he said
i love you too.
we drew closer
gave each other a quick peck on the lips

now we were hanging out more often
he was just all over me
i was happy
but there was one thing
this time it was no longer a peck
he'd push his tongue in my mouth
i began to feel uneasy
because the taste was unbearable
but i stuck to it
didn't want to break it
he was too cute
a rush of brown and pink
and me..just brown
i thought i was lucky
to have him
but the truth
he was lucky to have me.

Daddy tried to kill me.

2007-12-18T20:06:00.000+08:00

was in my room.
borrowed paint from my dad.
seemed like i was in a hall.
started to work on this blank piece of paper.
suddenly the man starts yelling me.
who told you, you could take my paint.
i asked you!!
continued my work.
he was quiet.
from the corner of my eye i could see..
he took a pillow..
wrapped it around my neck
with full force he yanked at it
felt my windpipe tightening
i somehow got free and ran to the main hall
where my sister lay on the sofa
staring at me..
the end*

Dont worry ppl it was only a dream.

Fighting for what she believes in.

2007-12-15T02:13:00.000+08:00

Listen to this.

I had a dream the other day.

And here is how it goes.

I was in my moms room. She had this white, plastic, container which looks like those protein building powder things. Anyways it had a weird name on it called power christ or something like that i can't remember cuz it was kinda blurry and sometime back.

My mom opens it and takes out what seems to be cassettes. I know it was freaky to see this. She slid the tape into the cassete player and it started to role. suddenly a white, blonde haired woman pops on the screen and she is going on about the word of god. She's in a wide area on grass and she then points out to a huge wall which has been enscripted with words. i don't remember what exactly it said but something about the land which was a sacred place and the wall should be demolished. Out of a sudden this woman starts throwing herself at the wall!!!

I was outrageous at this sight. Her face was covered with cuts and bruises but that didn't stop her. The next thing i saw was pretty frightening. Four men who had accompanied her, carried her up where her head was aiming towards the wall and they threw her right at it. Even with her body getting brutally bashed up she continued. It was like she couldn't die though she could feel the pain(constant moans and ahh's). The wall was starting to crack just abit. By this time i think she had already been thrown into the wall about 20 times.

The group of men continued to repeat this motion but this time they threw her into a corner. She got up with fury and was about to demand for an explanation when a one of those men pulled out a knife and stabbed her in the chest. She yelped and then stared at him thinking maybe He was wondering whether she can get hurt. "owh, you wanna see if i" interrupted by another stab through her back. then it came to mind that it was not the usual men she sent to get down the wall. These men wanted her dead. All the four men started to hit her. One took out a bat and hit her till she fell to the ground. In the meantime the men you came with her were wondering what happened and where she went off to.

This was probably the most bloodiest dream i've ever had. Even with her on the floor the men were getting at her from every direction. This time she was kneeling with the sole of her feet facing outwards. A man drove his knife right through her right foot which continued into the ground. She gave a loud shout forcing her head towards the sky..

And then!!!.............i woke up :

071207. Sunway Lagoon.

2007-12-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

alisha and baby.

me, sha and ash

lucky guy*
hotness*

the biggest poser i know..:D
sha started puking = drinks
she swore it was cuz of an empty stomach..

cock and bull* hehe
what did i tell ya.
i still love him..
i think.. :)
some baywatch action going on here. ;)
my sweet looking parrot..
now you believe me? hee hee*

Feelings

2007-12-05T18:13:00.000+08:00

Don't feel so close as i once use to be. went out with ash, sha and vid and just went last week to the curve. it was really fun. quite random actually cuz sha wanted to crash at my place at first but then her dad didnt want her wandering off so she crashed at her own place. Went out again on thursday or was it wednesday? caught a movie. had fun. during my days of sunday school i wasn't really close to this bunch. but now that we're beginning to hang out i hope that we can get to know each other. plus i dont really have solid frens now since i dun really like my coll frens and im changing my course. i just really hope this is it cuz i don't wanna keep on doing this. i was really glad though with my reslts-- 1A+, 1B+ and 2B-. i've never gotten good grades for a long time. actually since year 10 i think. and an A for a test in history. anyways bak to the topic. i just hope that this is the final. the next one. i don't want to make another mistake. i dont really care much for my education. as long as i've got a good bunch of friends to stand by with. yeap thats what im going for.

'Love Talk'

2007-11-24T02:55:00.000+08:00

Ever felt like you knew everything was perfect?

That nothing could go wrong..

This normally happens in the early stage of an intimate relationship.

After awhile you may find a few habits that your partner has..

Cute habits become annoying.

Unique differences become inconsiderate.

And what was revealed to you as your habit..

May even hurt you.

There are many different types of love..

I categorize myself in something called storge love which is peaceful and tranquil.

But you see, my partner is in the category of manic love..

Obsessive and needs to give and receive attention and affection..

Ok maybe not. hehe. he's abit of all i guess. won't give details. too much.

Anyways back on the topic what im trying to say is..Deterioration

This is the only thing im afraid of.

Is when a bond between two are no longer strong as they once use to be.

It happens to everyone.

You just have to work it out.

And if it still doesn't work.

I say end the relationship already..

Before you guys start hating each other.

hehe..i shud give advice..hmm advice columnist.

By the way this is not the end

It is the beginning of chapter 1

Some people are forever Idiots

2007-11-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

why are there such assholes existing today??

im sure i've said this more than a hundred times.

this bugger comes along into my life

and screws everything up.

eventhough he didn't deserve it i was so nice

to him but why

and this is how he repays me??

that bastard i am gonna shut him out of everything.

say good bye.

i was so nice to you.

and you just couldn't see how hard i was trying

to be friends with you

just that i didn't want to in the first place

but now you see.

i was going to do this long ago but just couldn't

now nothing can stop me.

good bye..forever.

hope your life sucks

as it always has.

Sometimes i just wanna #%*@$..

2007-11-22T22:35:00.001+08:00

urghh!!!... you just had to do this to me!

i dont care where as long as it happens

even if it doesn't i dont give a shit!

i shouldn't have even suggested it.

now both our moods are spoiled.

atleast you get to go out everyday

but you shud know im stuck here at home.

could you stop being so selfish and inconsiderate!!

hmm...man that was better..hehe

just had to blow off some steam.

well what else is blogging for if not backstabbing someone.

~ :D ~

Decision made.

2007-11-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

I've made up my mind. im not going to waste three years of my life doing something i dont wanna do. so im going to study a'levels in this horrid school where they accept students who have been expelled from other schools. i just hope that it is recognised by other universities abroad. so after one year is complete i can study anywhere i want. now the only thing standing in my way is dad. mom says he's never going to let me study overseas. all i gotta do is just worm up to him. that won't be hard kissing up to an old man's ass. hehe

Life's Wasted

2007-11-17T19:41:00.000+08:00

I wanna Learn Spanish

I wanna play basketball

I wanna Run till my legs bleed

I wanna run Away and never return

I wanna Travel and taste the Good in Life

I wanna change college just cuz there's no curricular activities

I wanna be the one where people say "hey i know that girl she's gonna be well known one day"

I wanna be a part of a team. what ever it may be- dance, singing, sports? which i miss like hell by the way!!

I wanna go back to high school and give everyone a proper goodbye which i didn't. I miss them all and thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

All i wanted was a few days to think things through. But i was rushed into it. By my mom and god knows who else. I regret the decisions i've made and wish i was given a second chance to redo. But there's no time left and i dont wanna waste another few months of my life.

I've got to figure out what i wanna within the next one month or i'm doomed.

Last chance i better make a move. right or left. how do i know if its right or not. what if i take the wrong turn again?...left to be seen

To Edwin with Love

2007-11-16T20:30:00.000+08:00

This is to you my Love.

Happy Birthday!!

I don't know when you're gonna read this but when you do i hope it puts a smile on your face.

Dear i love you so much and though i don't show it much hopefully you can sense it.

I've been so tremendously happy these few months with you and i know you feel the same way right?

Anyways have a wonderful 22nd year ahead of you.. with me =]

Lost on the subway~

2007-11-15T21:07:00.000+08:00

All right then i was going somewhere or so it seemed. i was using some kinda train. it was underground more like a subway train. i could see like all my highschool frens with me. i especially remember seeing benny. haha. anywyas over and over again i kept on getting off at the wrong station and was always late for the next one. this was so weird. when i finally got to the right station i bumped into g and it was so weird bacause she looked so hot and i actually liked her. eventhough i didn;t know her. we then started talking when we were on our way to the bathroom. when i was about to go into the bathroom i felt like i didn't want to stop our conversation. so i just went to the room next to hers. of course she saw me. i started to bathe god knows why and so did she. so over the toilet we were still talking.
G: hey you wanna hang out?
me: yeah sure what you wanna do?
G: why don't you join me with my frens we're going clubbing today.
me: oh sure i'd love to..
suddenly i felt something being thrown over the bathroom door straight at me. It was her frens and i guess they didn't want me to come along with them. but i so wanted to go out with g that i just kept close to her after i came out. but then they started to hit me and push me away. so yeah this is one of the craziest dreams i've had so far. it was like i was obsessed with her. So to break it down im not obsessed with her. i just think she's hot. hehe.

Grand Mansion

2007-11-15T20:37:00.000+08:00

This may have been long overdue. i've always wanted to write it out when it was fresh in my mind but never got the time. ok its about a dream i had so long ago. its not quite interesting but the foundation was grand.

I was invited to stay at this man's mansion supposedly an uncle of mine together with my family of course. But i dont remember seeing any of their faces. anyways the place was huge. the whole building was in the shape of a circle. and this is shocking. there was a metro train on every floor. and thrust me there were alot of floors. i looked up and it was like never ending. it sorta seemed like a shopping mall. but instead of shop lots all over the place there were bedrooms. everything was computerized. the doors were glass and see through. when you came close it would automatically open. there weren't even maids to do the cleaning in the rooms. there were machines that would all of a sudden come out of the walls and tidy up the place. anyways i'll just skip to the end. i was like sneaking around looking at the place. then suddenly i felt something following me. started walking faster i saw this huge shadow against the wall. it was my uncles very own babysitting machine. i ran to the room where my sister was in and threw myself on the bed next to her. the machine like baby sitter came closer.. sniffing up every area until it came to the bad. she then stopped as though she had found what she was looking for. i looked down hoping i didn't leave anything that could leave my trace and there i saw something glowing...

Didn't really know much of anything after that cuz thats when i got up. yesterday i had another weird dream. but i'll talk about in the next post. enjoy!!

Worked Up^

2007-11-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

So Many things im filled with. Now that we dont have a maid i gotta do more than HALF the work. And believe me it's Alot.

Some day i just feel Blue.
other days i feel kinda Mellow.

Then when my baby comes over i feel lovely..
Aww and im missing you dear. OK nowadays i guess im grateful for this wonderful guy i have. almost gonna be FOUR months. and his birthday's coming up. can't wait!

i hope he likes it. kinda screwed it up. me and my itchy fingers. =] hehe.
oo0o..and i got this black top.
its hot but not so much on me. gotta lose abit you know what im saying. hehe
THANKS for the top BABY.

I LOVE IT.

I LoVe YoU!

boredom strikes again..

2007-11-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

im so freaking bored..waiting for my boy to msg me back. i wanna go out but not really cuz i wanna write this blog. plus im so lazy these days. hehe. i've just finished my exams this week. yippy!! now i wanna go clubbing. haizz...well i've been real bored so i took these pics which is actually kinda funy but dont laugh. =] its kind of a mixture of old and new. so please forgive me.

it goes from recent to ..umm...not so recent...enjoy!!

taking photos just after the casting.

No Entry!

isn't he adorable..i know what you're thinking..yeah deff(cough*bullshot*cough) hehe. just kidding dearie.

i think i look cute here don't you? hehe

mirror-ry

yeah i was feeling kinda kookoo

HOTT!! hehe more like PHAT!

yeah this almost freaked me out.

Dont look at me! I'm shy..

I Love Ferrero Rocher more than anything!!

Making New Friends

2007-09-30T11:26:00.000+08:00

I've just joined Taylors college abt 3 months ago- 6th July. but unfortunately missed the first day and lost the chance to bond with my group. but after awhile i managed to make friends. mostly guys..hehe.. but ofcourse girls too. its been a lot of fun. i've got a new gang to go clubbing with. and ofcourse my darlin as well. but just lately i heard this fat ass likes me..its that fat indian guy you can see in this photo. yikes! i think i was just too nice to him in the beginning. but now im trying to ignore him. the other day he grabbed my phone and tried to hide it but i was like f*ck you give it bak. hehe. yea i was mean but when guys like these start to like you you'll understand how disgusting it feels. damn he could take up the whole photograph. ergh! seeing him glance over at me is so..yuck. probably i would say he's the most ugliest person i've ever seen. and his behavior is another one. ok enough abt him i dont wanna obsess on something that is soo low. anyways the other friends i've made are pretty nice. but there's this one girl who is like just too open like she's kinda weird but over exaggerates but sometimes nice. and then there is this one guy who's nice but only hang around with me cause i think he just wants someone to talk to so i feel nice abt that atleast one guy who doesn't hang around me cause he thinks i look nice. its so much harder making friends in college. at times i picture myself in high school with my old friends running havock though we're quite grown. we just did things not caring what other ppl think. but mainly i hate mass com to yeah i guess this is all because of my feelings for that. for me it normally comes easy but not this time. ppl are prolly just jealous. hehe. kidding!!=p

Is it too good to be true?

2007-09-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

Lots have been happening since the last time i wrote a blog. hmm..lets see...first was the sunway lagoon wet&wild party-21st july 07. on that very day was also the birth of a beautiful relationship..or so i hoped..and still do. hehhe. edwin and i are still going strong...i think.. with a few bumps here and there. but then a again what is a relationship without some fire? =PPP..though we've only been together for 2 months already. can't say much cause i don't really know him that well. now i sorta feel like we rushed into the relationship..or should i say i rushed?? since i made the 1st move?? hehe. i first met him through his cousin at heritage row and was invited to a hotel for some girls birthday party. thats where when i really looked at edwin i thought damn this guy's HOT! but then later on he seemed really sweet. but i still think he made the first move cuz i don't remember!!! heheh ok moving on bak to the story. lately there's been more arguments going on than i expected. getting alil bit too emo infront of him. shedding tears and all. which is really stupid cuz i have never cried infront of a guy before. and i would say that this is the only relationship where there's so many arguments and hurt involved. im so hating that part but what can i do? its not like i start it. hold other guys hand and he goes bezerk. but he can do dirty dancing between two girls all. well i guess he means well. taking care of me and all. but sometimes its just too much. i've already made it clear that i don't want it to be so serious and he's still finding fault with me. but what ever it is i still love him. whether it will last or not time will tell.

Denise's Birthday Bash!!

2007-05-29T18:51:00.000+08:00

A great party. One to remember. The best ever. And we didn't even have to drink to enjoy. haha(you know what i mean). Lots a catching up. Almost everyone was there. the good guys, the not so good ones. i lost my fairview book!! hahah. but no matter hopefully i'll get it back. anyways back to the party. it was just great. happy belated birthday hunny. sorry about your present. i left it the damn cab. nvm the next time we meet i'll give you something. babe i love you so much. i will always be here whether you need me or not. whatever it is. you know you can count on me. and ofcourse ser as well. i love you to bits. i love you 100x100 times greater. hehe.

k these are just pictures of that night.

Graduation!!!

2007-05-29T17:12:00.000+08:00

26th May-Graduated. It was fun and kinda scary at the same time. woohhoo!!! i've graduated. dun have to see the pl i dun wanna. owh wait! crap i might just run into them in college. owh well back to graduation. it was fun. was taking loads of pictures of each other. bahahahah!!! i look crappy in all of them but nvm.

Nerissa!

Shreosi!
Yea Ji
Sae Mi!
Den & Ser*
Elsie! Mon!

Nilu & Mon
Den &I

Ser&I
bENBen!
Ji, Yea ji&I
mi & nilU
Wins!
Him&Mon
Eun choel, Wins & Jon
Jon!
mi, Nina&Neetu
Seng&Jaturun
Nilu, Saemi, Eunbi, some girl, me, bohyeonBaoro!!
Mon..not knowing that she was suposed to be in the photo, suyin &mi
Minhtut
Year 11..half of them anyways.
Prashant

yeah the after party went to mojos and met some of my pals.

Glenn!Steven!!
David!!

and finally the last person i took a pix with..

Seung Gi

~Die!~

BrIng m3 the Go0dne$s~

2007-05-19T20:42:00.001+08:00

Still in exams. but feel more like partying, relaxing. why do things always happen at the wrong time. eesh!! i wanna study overseas. either US, UK or Aussie. but mommy says i gotta do A'levels here. i dun even need A'levels. this is such a bore. even writting it makes me wanna snooze. took whole lotta pictures the other day. ~

~i hate you but i love you. i can't stop thinking of you. it's true. im stuck on you.. you're still on my mind. eventhough you're so bloody clueless and lame. ergh!!

damn i wish i hadn't made the deal with that sick fucker. now i gotta go strip and do dunno what else with him. ahahahaha. got your attention? this was all crap btw.

owh im gonna graduate in a weeks time. can't wait. gonna miss my gfs and bfs. ahh...all the memories, i shall cherish. though i may not say it out loud~i love you!!!

0.0

2007-05-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

In the midst of exams>> been lazying around instead of studying. bm in two days time. got another U lined up. hehe. i mean how can you study for bm right. saya akan gagal!! did i even say that right?? anyways right now im just gonna work out. start dancing and loose abit. been gaining>>eating alot of junk for the past week. ok chow...denise i know your reading this. ahahahha. peace out. goodluck for your exams...stop reading my blog and go study. nothing interesting here....yet. hahahah. well till next time. bye. kisses. muaks

Happy Easter?

2007-04-08T02:07:00.000+08:00

happy but broken. i want someone but 'he' doesn't want me. well thats what i think. someone tells me he cares. but he says im too innocent...right. and he's just scared that something bad will happen. what could be worse then the hardache of love not formed? its not like he wants someone serious right? fine he thinks im such a goodie. so what? i dun care... i think. the more the days pass the more i feel like i should let it go. but i can't. he's always in touch. its not like i can erase him from my life like how i did to the others. maybe we shouldn't have gone out in the first place. this wouldn't have happened if not for that day. that wonderful day. 23rd march 07. a day i shall not forget. argh!!! if only....if only i could go back in time. can someone please create this time machine so no one can keep dreaming of the 'if only's'?? i know it doesn't make sense. ppl come up to me and say owh rhea your so preety, i like your hair, i like your face. ahh!! sometimes i just get so frustrated knowing that they hate me deep down inside. why couldn't god just create us equally preety or equally ugly. which ever it is im fine with it. maybe in my next life i'll be ugly...who knows..but i dont believe in that. owh well...its 2.20am early on sunday morning. its EASTER!! the LORD IS RISEN!!! ALLELULLIA!!!

Happy Easter mY dear Lovely's

Sports Day! (supposedly).

2007-03-29T21:24:00.000+08:00

Sports day was weeks ago but forgot to write in so here goes. won two medals- gold for 100m and silver for 200m. would have gotten silver for relay but got freakkin disqualified cuz of some asshole who claims that i pass the line but i dun think so cuz i was well away from it eventhough i ran back.

Though my house(VENUS) won i feel depressed.

ARGHH!!

When do i get to get the trophy? i know im never gonna get it now. ppl have pictures of the sports day thing but im not even freaking getting it....ahhh so irritating...always gotta keep asking for it.

Fcuk him i want my phone back. that bastard can go rot in hell for all i care. thinks mom is keeping us away from him.. hahah its we who are not wanting to go to him when he comes home!!!

I am all alone....

Tommorow.

2007-03-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

Tommorow. Sports Day. Just can't wait to run.
>All my anger. Everything i carry. revenge, pity, sorrow.
>Lay it out all on the track.
>Between me and them.
>If you can't beat them, join em'.

Another damn dream..

2007-03-13T20:10:00.001+08:00

Camping. Went with my friends to some kinda jungle. It was just a small group of us. no teachers or adult supervision. all i could remember was that there was a medical room. in the jungle! weird but yea. n i was helping out init. remember one person got hurt. couldn't se the face. n i was dapping the wound. telling the patient to be careful and yada yada yada...
saw my bestie(denise) sitting on a rock. i went and sat next to her and we started talking..dunno abt wat la but having fun and yapping away. Then for awhile i went away. dun even know where. maybe to the toilet. if there was one in the jungle. came back and joined den. nicely held hands with her(ey just as the friend way ok not like...u know wat i mean). Anyways i asked her something and after she replied i was thinking to myself that does not sound like her.
I turned around to look and it was PR!! with the long hair and everything!! i was so shocked, screamed, got off the rock and tried to run off not knowing that my hand was in his. got pulled back and fell. Pulling my hand away but he wouldn't let go. Suddenly my herd of so-called-friends came and started laughing. not stoping to help. they just walked off and one even was doing some kinda motion as if he was gonna kick me. I was so confused.
One end my friends are acting like such assholes and the other...still gripping onto my hand. I stared at him. and he did the same. suddenly the environment changed. we were in my house but same position. this time he was sitting on a chair and me on my marble floor. he got up and pulled me up as well. giving indication that he wanted to be alone with me. yet again.
he walked towards my room and me being an idiot followed after him. woke up after that. i guess i still do have feelings for him but dun want to do anything cuz he's give up on love and still LOVES his ex. plus its no tlike he has feelings for me. Dun even know why im saying this. not even part of the dream. but yea its sad.
told him abt the dream but not exactly everything. and now he wants me to email him the story..yea right like hell im gonna do that. ok well mayb. but wateva. just a dream right. though most of mine come true. but in diff ways ofcourse. blah. know this is boring but just felt like writing it out. who knows maybe i liked it.

Wise Words

2007-03-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

>> Work like you don't need the money.
>> Love like you've never been hurt.
>> Dance like nobody's watching.
>> Sing like nobody's listening.
>> Live like it's Heaven on Earth.

May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

Grad Photoshoot Day!! 28/2/07

2007-03-01T00:33:00.000+08:00

The Besties..nilu's missing =[

Minhtut!!!!!

Mon!!!

Close-up

Denise, Nerissa n me.

Jonathan!!!!

Minh Nhat and Mahfuz

Me~

Hye Jeong!!!

Musharrat, Wyn, Ji Eun n me

With Shreosi!!!

me, Wyn, Shreo, Suzy and Nerissa

Group Photo 1

Group Photo 2

I love this picture

wth?...Hogwarts Students!!

With Min n Jon...hottest guys in school (cough*bullshit*cough)

Suyin!! she's so preety here.

CNY/ Suyin's Birthday Party.

2007-02-26T15:38:00.000+08:00

yup yup. it was a blast. there was steam boat and that yummy chocolatie cake but by yin yin herself. and had a great time with friends whom i can hardly keep in touch with cause of our damn studies. well im too lazy to write every detail of how it went so just look at the pictures.

Ji&I. Forced to slavery! haha...nah

I love this photo. Jon was scared i was gonna pop the cork at him.

Clearing the table.

Blowing out her candles. make a wish su! make a wish!!

Nicely chattin.

Fairview's Angels?....yea right.

damn minhtut closed his eyes...lets take again...

wyn chi stop it or i'll pounce on you!!

weeeeeeee...

us. cards. pillows. drinks....we weren't drinking the beer by the way.

now with shireen!

yeah he finally showed up at like after 10 and was like show me the money!!

suyin's the only normal lookin one over here.

Happy Valentines!

2007-02-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

It's exactly one day passed so here goes..

Happy (belated) Valentines Day.

If it can be said then so be it. Spent Valentines mostly sleeping. Didn't bother. Just happily single. hehe. I know i might not sound like it but i am. Not lookin for love anymore. I know i had true love but i lost it to my stupidity. Now i have to suffer the rest of my days being single. Or mayb with someone i don't really care for so deeply as I once used to. Thats the way it goes nowadays. Is there even such a thing as a your perfect match, soul mate, true love? Can what was lost be once again found in another? Thats what i yearn to know. But i doubt you can find the exact same replicate your looking for. It will always be different. You may think that you have found THE ONE! But things change. After some time seeing that one person everyday can get annoying. You start to wonder " Why was i ever with that fellow?". " What the heck did i see in him/her?". Get what im trying to say? There is always that point in time where you won't feel the same way you once did. That is only natural. Don't put yourself down because you feel you made the wrong decision. If it is to end just end it. It is bound to happen sooner or later.

Thanks Ya'll

2007-02-11T15:46:00.000+08:00

Two days back. Friday. 9/2/07. Was supposedly my day. My birthday infact. thought it would be like any other boring day. In the morning my close buddies banged into me, giving me a big hug along with my presents. I was glad. But during maths i had this strange feeling. and i wanted to keep it that way. didn't want it to go away. it was sad but some sort of a calm one. But anyways wat im tryin to get through is that the day turned out to be better than i had expected. Thank you so much to those who wished me and to those who gave me the pressies...lots of hugs and kisses. I absolutely love em'.

He's Goin Down Alright.

2007-02-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

Bring him down. Bring him all the way down. Show sympathy-no he doesn't deserve any. For what he made us go through...he should suffer and be tortured on earth as well as in hell. Saying that it doesn't matter if we date our best friends ex. Well i thought it wouldn't matter as well seeing that he really liked me. But it was all a bloody lie. I put my friendship at stake. Without even knowing. I had a feeling that she will get hurt. That she still had feelings for him. But i guess i wanted him. To feel the same way she did. Cause i haven't felt that way in a long time. And i still haven't. But i tried to control myself. Was scared for my best friend so just thought that i could lay low for awhile.

But then mr.p had a talk with me one day. Which really changed my mind. Thought that the guy had a soft spot. For all the things mr.p said i actually felt wanted. But while it was going on..which i dont even know wat its called...i didn't even feel like he cared. I felt used. All the shit he told me was just to keep me in his fuckin collection. Well now im out and im so gonna bury him. Im gonna hurt him when he least expects it. Gonna bury him Alive. He's gonna pay for every single thing that he did. That fucking ass gigolo who can't keep his pants zipped. I'm gonna squeeze his balls till there's no 'juice' left to squeeze out.

Foolish Me

2007-01-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

I'm so sorry darlin.
never realised that it hurt you so bad.
i was under the influence.
you know how he can charm girls.
i didn't know that it would hurt you so much.
i know i kept telling him that we shouldn't cause of you
and ya'll just broke up so atleast give it some time.
but no he couldn't effin wait.
just couldn't wait to use me.
i was convinced
that he atleast cared
but as you know it was all a lie.
never much liked me either
we were all his collections, his experiments
Dun worry dahlin
we shall all get bak at him
one day it'll all come crashing down.
just hope we're there to witness the fall.

(This is for you ser*)

love ya babe.

Stop!

2007-01-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

I've got to stop. Keep having flashbacks. Can't stop thinking about it. Everything i look at reminds me of it. "Do you regret knowing me?" "No ofcourse not" .....BUT YES I DO REGRET! I regret meeting you. I regret falling for you. I regret for having anything to do with YOU!!!

Didn't Deserve

2007-01-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

Aching.

Deep inside I was aching.

Thought i had him.
Had him to hold.

Had him to keep.
Had him to love.
In my mind, he was mine.
All mine.

Didnt' even think about his background.

Didn't think it would matter.

After all i had him.

Even if it was just for a little while.

But I wanted more.

More than he could offer.

He then had another.

In which his heart really desired but lost

Blinded was i for i couldn't see the desperation

In his eyes it was shown clearly.

But i chose to ignore it.

Now knowing that he was on the rebound.

My heart sank

Regreting the day we met.

The day it occured.

I let him take charge.

That bastard almost made me loose something precious.

He didn't deserve to be the first.

He didn't deserve to see anything.

To have anything.

To have me.

Confirmation Frenz...miss them soo much.

2007-01-21T01:03:00.000+08:00

That damn Dream.

2007-01-20T16:09:00.000+08:00

Night. Driving through this beautiful scene. Bright lights hit our faces from lamp posts. mom was sitting next to me. glanced through the window and was fascinated. huge buildings surrounded the road which went straight up through the middle. There was this one weird but beautiful looking, glass covered building. Light from inside shone through so brightly. I couldn't help but take photos. I suddenly caught one guy staring at me through the lens. Feeling uneasy i put the camera away. We then passed this weird spot where people just sat waiting for something. "It must be the bus-stop" i said aloud. " No the bus-stop is just infront of us" mom proclaimed. I looked front and saw this weird formation that was supposedly a bus stop. it was machine like. it looked like a ferres wheel but more oval shaped where the top and bottom were far apart from one another. But half of it was covered by this blue glass which was not see-through. People were strapped into their seats. As it kept rotating a person would appear at the top and at the bottom, one would dissapear into the blue glass. When the bus drove up, the 'bus-stop' would transfer all of them into the bus and return to it's position. I was stunned. In my mind i was wondering if this could be the happenings of the future. I thought that we were in some exotic place like phillipines or thailand. But mom said that we're in Europe, Boa? I've never even heard of such a place. Pretty sure it doesn't exist.
Suddenly out of no where warlords were chasing us and we had to get out of the country. Landing in an asian country, we rested for awhile. an old chinese man was following us. seemed to be our protector. again the warlords appeared with their swords running after us. the reason i dont know. but just kept running. somehow we were able to corner one of them. i have no idea how it came to that. mom questioned him but he didn't reply. the old man then cut off his arm. i looked away in disgust. running. again we were running. dad suddenly came out of no where and pulled me away. still running. he kept taking the wrong routes. "Your going the wrong way! they're gonna catch us!" I yelled out. but dad being a person who never listens took a wrong turn again. we were cornered. i warned him didn't i. This time the only way out was through a hall leading to a beach. ofcourse we took it. the waters were hitting hard against the sides of the buildings. It was rising...fast. i had to start swimming for my legs couldn't touch the ground any longer. i looked around in haste but no sign of dad. i was alone. swimming. trying to get to high grounds. wondering how deep the waters were i looked down. Many bodies lay below. no movement. probably dead. then i noticed- a little child, no more than a toddler. struggling in the water just below me. i swam down and grabbed him. with the child with me i swam to the tallest building and started climbing up. i looked down and saw many people following me. then saw another child who was finding it hard to climb. i left the toddler at the topmost part of the building and went down to get the other child. the waters soon reseeded. But news stated that there was going to be another hit. The governor(dont know how he came into my dream) said that since i saved two children, will reserve a spot for me where the waters won't hit. Giving myself a shock i said " It's ok, I want to save the children!". Alot of heads turned in astonishment.

The most weirdest, most beautiful, most disturbing dream i've ever had.

Boredom.

2007-01-17T20:11:00.001+08:00

bored. nothin comes to mind. den keeps askin me to update. here's to you den! exams are over..woohoo..havent been going to school. though i should. this post sounds boring. so gonna delete it soon. oh and to those who realise their in my blog. sorry. couldn't help it. just gotta bang someone you know. so taking it out on someone else. Just wanna say i love my babes and dudes. ya'll may not know who im refering to but i still love ya'll. this blog's been kinda dead for about two months now so i'll just fill it with this crap. Gonna be sent to effin indian college-methodist!!! gotta find an alternetive otherwise im toast. oh yeah since nilu's going there too then i'll have company. we can bask in the indain-ness! join the indian club! yeah its all about indians right now. damn. but it'll all be worth it in the end. well if its not it better be. right now- study. study. study. sorry if this bores you den. hehe. its meant to. since you're probably the only one reading this damn thing.

Peeps Dear to Me

2006-12-26T18:45:00.001+08:00

Post Confirmation Camp at Isi Rimba.

2006-12-02T13:10:00.000+08:00

Spent two days, one night at Isi Rimba on 18th and 19 of November 2006 and thank god for that. Just couldn't stand being away from home. On the first day the camp was so darn tiring and we all thought it was about to get worse. Had a really long jungle track where we had to cook rice and fish in the middle of nowhere. Then we had to eat what we cooked which was nothing so 10 people(no. of people in my group) had to starve. But the people of the area felt some sympathy for us and gave rice with egg and vegee. After about two hours it began to rain. The guys from my group thinking they're so macho didn't build a shelter thining we can withstand it. Well i was freaking cold, started shaking and good thing dear old Aaron was there to hug. When that day was done i was so glad.

Well the second day was much better. Woke up, got cleaned and did our morning prayers in silence...quite funny actually. After our meditation we did some exercise and went for the obstacle course. When that was done we just couldn't wait to get into the river and have our bath. Soon left for church with good memories in our hearts....man this sounds like some composition!

(_|_)

2006-12-02T13:09:00.001+08:00

When you can't have something/someone you know you've just got to give up and move on right. or get another one which is as much as satisfying as the original one. But some assholes (not naming anyone) will just keep going after either not knowing that you don't want them or wateva untill you get those sick images in your head and you feel so disgusted with him/her whenever they're around. Thats what i had to go through just to help a friend out. Buying gifts is so not gonna help win someones heart. And talking shit about her friends behind their backs is deffinitely not going to work. Which will make matters worse. I was stupid at first to believe what you had said about someone i really cared for but after some time i knew you just said those things to keep my mind off that person. Wanting to get my attention. Well too bad and thank you for doing that cause i saw you for what you reallie were you helpless bastard! you said you had former girlfriends but it never worked out well i think i know why. They only get together with you for your money. And after they've got all that they want they'll ditch you. or w/. well good riddens. Thank goodness i didn't make that mistake. maybe i should have just held on a bit longer, used you and then leave you hangin there. but i just couldn't take it anymore when i saw that you've got no manners and respect towards girls. wats wrong with you, you helpless piece of sh*t.

Drifting Apart

2006-12-02T13:08:00.000+08:00

Thought i had everything. Friends, Family, Love. But now its all slowly drifting away. The thing is that i have no clue what's going on. Sometimes i feel like their (besties) better off without me. Nowadays they dont even keep in contact with me. They don't bother to call when im ill or when im not around for days. Do they even care how i feel? Im starting to think not. Before it was just two of us. Then it became three. By this time i was invincible. The two of them would walk off together leaving me by my lonesome. When another one joined in i felt quite happy for atleast i had someone to talk to. But my first bestie began to feel left out because we were all hanging out with the latest one who had just joined us. When she had consulted me about it i told her i felt the same way about the first one. things soon started to look up. But now it looks like its back to the way it was when i was excluded. But im used to it now. Used to being left out. Used to rejections. Used to being used. Nothing new to cry about these days. People will hurt you one way or the other. No use of wasting your tears on them. Even when they say sorry...there will always be a time when they were never sorry at all. Anyone can say it. You can just never tell whether they mean it or not. Trust me, they will hurt you over and over again. All you gotta do is just shut them out of your life. For me, it'll be hard. Time will tell if im doing the right thing. Live without them...maybe not. But i've gotta try.

What guys don't know but need to.

2006-12-02T12:58:00.000+08:00

When i run away from you
-Follow me

When i pout my lips
-Kiss me

When i kick
-Hug me tight

When i call you crazy
-I'm crazy about you

When i'm silent
-Im thinking of how to say i love you

When i ignore you
-I want all your attention

When i pull away
-Grab me by the waist and tell me you'll never let me go

When you see me at my worst
-Tell me im beautiful

When i scream
-Tell me you love me

When you see me walking
-Sneek up behind and hug me

If i dont call you
-Im waiting by the phone for your call

When i say i dont care
-I do care

When im scared
-Hold me tight

When i look like something's the matter
-Kiss me and tell me everything's alrite

When i hold your hands
-Play with my fingers

Nilu's Birthday Bash!!!

2006-11-26T19:13:00.000+08:00

All gONE

Me n my Sweet lil Photographer.

Shireen looks alright, i look like i just cried and winston looks so totally stoned

Shireen, me, Winston and Rimka :)

Dont ask

yup yup... filling up our drinks. Wanting to get me drunk so you could take advantage of me right....i knew that was your plan wins!

Yeah he's got some nice moves...and i've got a sexy back!!!...=p

I just love my back!

Miss him so... my taikhor?wtf

...

Hey Ya'll!!! =)

2006-11-26T12:35:00.000+08:00

I'm a cute lil pikachoo and i can't wait to meet you! ..Bullshit!!! coughcough* go blow your horns!!! hehehe (laughs evilly*) All those guys who try to get friendly with girls through the internet so that after awhile they can meet up and lure them into having sex...screw ya'll you effin' bastards!!! Love you guys!!!...Peace.

I've Got Sparkle in my Eyes!

Scars

happy 11th month

Hopeless Case

+_+

There are asses.. and then there's not so asses

Troubled

Love and Hate all in one day..

Another Performance..

Performing with BlackRose

I love you daddy :|

Hit me like them girls^ wheee.!!

1st May O8

Presents!!!:D

...

(^)

Her*

Shopping!!

SK Concert/ Outing.

Begining to See

Finally Got It Through

Touching*

Confusion gets to all of us.

Torch Lights

Flo Rida ft. T-Pain - Low [currnt addiction]

A very Naughty Dream

-The Daily Rhea-

1/20 of me is yours to keep

Rescission in Agreements

History Repeats Itself

Realizing

-What a Day [Valentines]-

Settling In

You Underastimate Me

My Special Birth-day*

"1st Feb 08"

=Newsflash=

No Air

It's Over?

Happy Birthday SHA*

[Lagoon] Again!! <19th Jan 08'>

Raging Hormones;)

Memories of 2007

Passion I

[Blank]

Wrong turn

Signs.

An Event i would define as Awesome

I wanted it so bad!

Strangers

Daddy tried to kill me.

Fighting for what she believes in.

071207. Sunway Lagoon.

Feelings

'Love Talk'

Some people are forever Idiots

Sometimes i just wanna #%*@$..

Decision made.

Life's Wasted

*To Edwin with Love*

Lost on the subway~

Grand Mansion

Worked Up^

boredom strikes again..

*Making New Friends*

Is it too good to be true?

Denise's Birthday Bash!!

Graduation!!!

BrIng m3 the Go0dne$s~

0.0

Happy Easter?

Sports Day! (supposedly).

Tommorow.

Another damn dream..

Wise Words

Grad Photoshoot Day!! 28/2/07

CNY/ Suyin's Birthday Party.

Happy Valentines!

Thanks Ya'll

He's Goin Down Alright.

To Edwin with Love

Making New Friends