'Love Talk'

Ever felt like you knew everything was perfect?

That nothing could go wrong..

This normally happens in the early stage of an intimate relationship.

After awhile you may find a few habits that your partner has..

Cute habits become annoying.

Unique differences become inconsiderate.

And what was revealed to you as your habit..

May even hurt you.

There are many different types of love..

I categorize myself in something called storge love which is peaceful and tranquil.

But you see, my partner is in the category of manic love..

Obsessive and needs to give and receive attention and affection..

Ok maybe not. hehe. he's abit of all i guess. won't give details. too much.

Anyways back on the topic what im trying to say is..Deterioration

This is the only thing im afraid of.

Is when a bond between two are no longer strong as they once use to be.

It happens to everyone.

You just have to work it out.

And if it still doesn't work.

I say end the relationship already..

Before you guys start hating each other.

hehe..i shud give advice..hmm advice columnist.

By the way this is not the end

It is the beginning of chapter 1

Some people are forever Idiots

why are there such assholes existing today??

im sure i've said this more than a hundred times.

this bugger comes along into my life

and screws everything up.

eventhough he didn't deserve it i was so nice

to him but why

and this is how he repays me??

that bastard i am gonna shut him out of everything.

say good bye.

i was so nice to you.

and you just couldn't see how hard i was trying

to be friends with you

just that i didn't want to in the first place

but now you see.

i was going to do this long ago but just couldn't

now nothing can stop me.

good bye..forever.

hope your life sucks

as it always has.

Sometimes i just wanna #%*@$..

urghh!!!... you just had to do this to me!

i dont care where as long as it happens

even if it doesn't i dont give a shit!

i shouldn't have even suggested it.

now both our moods are spoiled.

atleast you get to go out everyday

but you shud know im stuck here at home.

could you stop being so selfish and inconsiderate!!

hmm...man that was better..hehe

just had to blow off some steam.

well what else is blogging for if not backstabbing someone.

~ :D ~

Decision made.

I've made up my mind. im not going to waste three years of my life doing something i dont wanna do. so im going to study a'levels in this horrid school where they accept students who have been expelled from other schools. i just hope that it is recognised by other universities abroad. so after one year is complete i can study anywhere i want. now the only thing standing in my way is dad. mom says he's never going to let me study overseas. all i gotta do is just worm up to him. that won't be hard kissing up to an old man's ass. hehe

Life's Wasted

I wanna Learn Spanish

I wanna play basketball

I wanna Run till my legs bleed

I wanna run Away and never return

I wanna Travel and taste the Good in Life

I wanna change college just cuz there's no curricular activities

I wanna be the one where people say "hey i know that girl she's gonna be well known one day"

I wanna be a part of a team. what ever it may be- dance, singing, sports? which i miss like hell by the way!!

I wanna go back to high school and give everyone a proper goodbye which i didn't. I miss them all and thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

All i wanted was a few days to think things through. But i was rushed into it. By my mom and god knows who else. I regret the decisions i've made and wish i was given a second chance to redo. But there's no time left and i dont wanna waste another few months of my life.

I've got to figure out what i wanna within the next one month or i'm doomed.

Last chance i better make a move. right or left. how do i know if its right or not. what if i take the wrong turn again?...left to be seen

*To Edwin with Love*

This is to you my Love.

Happy Birthday!!

I don't know when you're gonna read this but when you do i hope it puts a smile on your face.

Dear i love you so much and though i don't show it much hopefully you can sense it.

I've been so tremendously happy these few months with you and i know you feel the same way right?

Anyways have a wonderful 22nd year ahead of you.. with me =]

Lost on the subway~

All right then i was going somewhere or so it seemed. i was using some kinda train. it was underground more like a subway train. i could see like all my highschool frens with me. i especially remember seeing benny. haha. anywyas over and over again i kept on getting off at the wrong station and was always late for the next one. this was so weird. when i finally got to the right station i bumped into g and it was so weird bacause she looked so hot and i actually liked her. eventhough i didn;t know her. we then started talking when we were on our way to the bathroom. when i was about to go into the bathroom i felt like i didn't want to stop our conversation. so i just went to the room next to hers. of course she saw me. i started to bathe god knows why and so did she. so over the toilet we were still talking.
G: hey you wanna hang out?
me: yeah sure what you wanna do?
G: why don't you join me with my frens we're going clubbing today.
me: oh sure i'd love to..
suddenly i felt something being thrown over the bathroom door straight at me. It was her frens and i guess they didn't want me to come along with them. but i so wanted to go out with g that i just kept close to her after i came out. but then they started to hit me and push me away. so yeah this is one of the craziest dreams i've had so far. it was like i was obsessed with her. So to break it down im not obsessed with her. i just think she's hot. hehe.

Grand Mansion

This may have been long overdue. i've always wanted to write it out when it was fresh in my mind but never got the time. ok its about a dream i had so long ago. its not quite interesting but the foundation was grand.

I was invited to stay at this man's mansion supposedly an uncle of mine together with my family of course. But i dont remember seeing any of their faces. anyways the place was huge. the whole building was in the shape of a circle. and this is shocking. there was a metro train on every floor. and thrust me there were alot of floors. i looked up and it was like never ending. it sorta seemed like a shopping mall. but instead of shop lots all over the place there were bedrooms. everything was computerized. the doors were glass and see through. when you came close it would automatically open. there weren't even maids to do the cleaning in the rooms. there were machines that would all of a sudden come out of the walls and tidy up the place. anyways i'll just skip to the end. i was like sneaking around looking at the place. then suddenly i felt something following me. started walking faster i saw this huge shadow against the wall. it was my uncles very own babysitting machine. i ran to the room where my sister was in and threw myself on the bed next to her. the machine like baby sitter came closer.. sniffing up every area until it came to the bad. she then stopped as though she had found what she was looking for. i looked down hoping i didn't leave anything that could leave my trace and there i saw something glowing...

Didn't really know much of anything after that cuz thats when i got up. yesterday i had another weird dream. but i'll talk about in the next post. enjoy!!

Worked Up^

So Many things im filled with. Now that we dont have a maid i gotta do more than HALF the work. And believe me it's Alot.

Some day i just feel Blue.
other days i feel kinda Mellow.

Then when my baby comes over i feel lovely..
Aww and im missing you dear. OK nowadays i guess im grateful for this wonderful guy i have. almost gonna be FOUR months. and his birthday's coming up. can't wait!

i hope he likes it. kinda screwed it up. me and my itchy fingers. =] hehe.
oo0o..and i got this black top.
its hot but not so much on me. gotta lose abit you know what im saying. hehe
THANKS for the top BABY.

I LOVE IT.

I LoVe YoU!

boredom strikes again..

im so freaking bored..waiting for my boy to msg me back. i wanna go out but not really cuz i wanna write this blog. plus im so lazy these days. hehe. i've just finished my exams this week. yippy!! now i wanna go clubbing. haizz...well i've been real bored so i took these pics which is actually kinda funy but dont laugh. =] its kind of a mixture of old and new. so please forgive me.

it goes from recent to ..umm...not so recent...enjoy!!

taking photos just after the casting.

No Entry!

=P

isn't he adorable..i know what you're thinking..yeah deff(cough*bullshot*cough) hehe. just kidding dearie.

i think i look cute here don't you? hehe

mirror-ry

yeah i was feeling kinda kookoo

HOTT!! hehe more like PHAT!

yeah this almost freaked me out.

Dont look at me! I'm shy..

I Love Ferrero Rocher more than anything!!